Dragged away

Modern training today. Ryan did not come. Somehow I feel like so laggy today. Its not that I'm having muscle cramps. Its gone now except for my neck (and because of that, I cannot try baby freeze). My limbs just feel sooo heavy. Tired, maybe? HAHA. Did normal stuffs but it was way shorter than usual cuz Gladys wanted to have practice for those performing on Monday. And me as usual, stayed around to watch them practice. HAHA. Their item is really getting tighter now. :) Monday's performance will be awesome for sure. HAHA. Again, didn't join them for dinner. Instead went off to search for top secret stuffs. HAHA. Pretty satisfied with what we bought. :)

Surprisingly, I am actually looking forward for next week. Though not that much on Hiphop as I bet it will be damn tiring. But since we're going back to basics, it will be better isn't it? HEH. Okay pretty much forgot what I want to blog about so yup, that's all for now. :)

Oh yeah forgot to add. This week EC is the best. Saw him like everyday this week, other than tomorrow. My lips are sealed this time. :)

Okay other than Yus.

12.32am
So I'm nothing to you? It hurts when you share with others and not me. Am I supposed to just be satisfied with the, 'Life is never fair' explanation? This is not the first time and thinking how much I stick by your side, is it worth it? I never said I love you cuz its god damn fucking weird and foreign to me. Like what the fuck you never said it to me as well and you can just freely say it to others? And yes, its just to god damn fucking me you feel weird saying it. Should I hate you? I know I can't cuz I would have hated you long time ago from the way you treat me sometimes. I hate the fact that you can't tell when I'm upset and you have no idea why when its your fault. So tell me, if you're going to treat me like this, am I supposed to hate you and ignore you and just make you suffer? Okay you won't cuz you have others. Or am I supposed to keep on the charade and act all happy to you? I have others too so why the fuck am I sticking with you when you're doing this to me? FML.