Nadiah J

Oh how beatific I want it to be

2011-11-07T18:44:00.001+08:00

So I've decided to blog again. I guess a lot of things and maybe some changes have happened since I last blogged. For one, I've gotten an iPhone for myself. No, not 4s. I bought it days before the announcement of 4s came. Oh well, I do not regret and I do not covet. I absolutely love my phone and nowadays I don't feel the need to switch on my laptop anymore. In fact, I'm typing in a very retarded way now since I'm so used to typing with the hugeass keyboard at work. Which reminds me, tomorrow is a working day :/

Had a super long break from work. Not by choice. Was sick and absent myself on Thursday and Friday. Coupled with today being a public holiday, hello 5 non-working days. I'm dreading everyday of work and I have to pep talk myself everyday so as not to succumb to the temptation of going back to bed. But yes, I need the money and the truth is, I doubt I can enjoy any kind of other work. I am not a working person. I miss school so so badly :(

The one happy thing now is that I've gone back to dance. I am still on hiatus for Saturday trainings (just could not wake up) but I'm preparing for the annual Waves concert. Will be joining as alumni this time. And although I only have 2 items, I'm satisfied. Though every year, I will have to go through the motions of self-destruction and self doubt, I know that I'll be fine. I should try my hardest this time round and not let anyone down, especially myself. Yes, I can.

With the infinite apps to choose from, obviously I have tonnes of camwhoring photos in my phone and I have no idea where to post. I don't want to post it on Twitter since I don't see the point. I don't want to post it on Facebook since I'm too *ehem* shy. So this shall be the place I post my photos :) Sad to say, I think I look nicer in photos than in real life. Not kidding. I even look fine with no effects on. Oh well.

This is taken on one of the Sunday (I think it was last Sunday) when the whole family went to eat. It was pretty hot so I tied up my hair. See this is with no effects and I look fine even though I hated the way I look on that day.

Love the last photo from the picture on the right but my sister photobombed it :(

So yesterday I went to my grandma's place for Hari Raya Haji celebration. Nothing major. Mainly went there to eat and talk? Heh. And my hair looks awesome. Thus, more photos :)

Apologies for the messy arrangements but I'm lazy to make sure that everything's the same size. This is the best that I can do :) Hehe.

Shall enjoy the rest of the day now doing nothing productive.

Technology confuses me sometimes

2011-09-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

Oh hey its been eons since my last update. I had the best weekends so far. First thing first, it was a long weekend since I didn't go to work on Friday. Not that I skipped it on purpose. I had an eye infection and it hurts so bad. The prospect of staring at the computer for eight hours does not appeal to me at all. In fact I wouldn't want to skip if I have a choice. Since its like the 6th last day of having an EC at work.

I finished watching Kimi ni Todoke Season 1, I watched 2 episodes of Pretty Little Liars, I watched the first episode of The Mentalist Season 4 (Patrick Jane ftw), I watched all subbed videos of Running Man and Heroes, I watched several episodes of Sunshine Angel. Yeah, in short catching up with my shows. I have the habit of losing interest of watching something. Unless if its really, really very good. The only shows that I never stopped watching from the start is...Meteor Garden, Mars, You're Beautiful, Secret Garden, The Mentalist and The Vampire Diaries Season 1. Like really keep watching from the time I wake up to the time I sleep.

Okay I'm rambling off again.

So right now, I'm a dilemma. I think I'm not the only one. Iphone 5 or BB 9900 or Iphone 4?

As the whole world knows, I'm in dire need to change my phone. My SE W980 died so I'm using the only spare phone in the house, SE W200i. W980 is not fantastic but its pretty awesome. 8GB internal memory, camera's pretty clear for 2MP and I managed to download AlbiteReader which allows me to read books in epub format from my phone. Yes, its that awesome. But W200i? Nothing. Only text and calls. Even the games suck. There's no sudoku. And now that I'm earning, I have the means to get myself a phone that is not $0.

IPhone 5 is coming up October and it may seem stupid to buy a 4. But if its coming out on October in the US, I have to wait for the end of the year to change my phone which is, a bummer. I don't think my phone can last that long. And now there's the new BB 9900 which looks super awesome. It has keypad plus touch screen.

The things I like about BB:
1) It looks way more chio in the hands.
2) Its not as common as iPhone. Lesser people is carrying BB on the streets.
3) It has BBM. More exclusive. And in any case that Whatsapp is down (which I often heard about), there is still 'backup'.
4) Its cheaper that iPhone. $300+ with the cheapest plan under Singtel.

The cons?
1) Not much apps. Though can still read books which is an ultimate must.
2) Screen way smaller. Which means watching videos or looking at pictures is not as satisfying. And I really want to be able to watch my downloaded shows on the go.
3) Monthly bills will be more than monthly bills with iPhone plan.

The things I like about iPhone:
1) Way more choices in covers/customisations.
2) The apps!! Like its the best seriously.
3) Pay lesser a month as opposed to BB plans.
4) Super big screen for videos + photos. And I heard 5's gonna be an 8MP camera.

The cons?
1) More problems than BB?

Okay I guess from this list, the iPhone triumphs BB. But then I have to wait till end of the month for my pay. By then everyone's raving for a 5 and getting a 4 will be majorly outdated. So. How now brown cow?

ConfusedGirl_91 >.<

Let fate take its course of nature

2011-09-12T23:35:00.001+08:00

Background story of this post. This is drafted on the 10th of September but I suddenly lost the mood to type so it has been in my draft since then.

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Back again. I realised I have this thingy where at one point I'll keep blogging and then go on hiatus and then back to blogging spree. And obviously now's the spree moment. Its 11.44pm now and I'm trying to finish before 12am so that it will still be under Friday post and it will make it look like I just blogged one day after another :) Okay rubbish.

So anyway, another thing that I've realised is that I've been using the word mundane very regularly (and the word realised in this post haha). Becoming so so banal.

Work today was madness. Finished what was given to me yesterday and then new applications came so I had to that. And then some other stuffs and then apparently there's more of the stuffs that I did yesterday. But know what, I like it. I like having a pile of things to do. Rather have tonnes of things to than just taking my own sweet time doing one thing. Apart from the work, lunch was good with some considerate people. But I'm puzzled over someone's behaviour. I have 2 days to not mull over it yet.

Okay its already 12.03am. Someone came to my house -.-

I was thinking about some stuffs when I was on my way home just now. I do that a lot because I don't have any sort of entertainment with me so its only my thoughts and me. And this time round, I was thinking about my ideal guy.

Mentioned in a previous post that my ideal guy would be someone like Vic Chou's character in Mars. Still is but I was thinking more in depth. So I made a list :)

1) A conversationalist.
An ultimate must for me. Although I can be chatty but only with the right people. But with people that I'm not close to, there's a need for them to like you know, contribute to the conversation and make it flow.

2) Not clingy
Another ultimate must. Super, super, super hate clingy people. Those that wants to stick with you 24/7. Hate it. Clingy also means touchy. Like you've got to give me room to breathe man.

3) Doesn't expect me to call him.
I absolutely hate phone calls. So my ideal guy will not be those kind who expects me to call him every night (trust me, there are people like that) and okay fine if he wants to call BUT do not expect me to have like 1 hour long conversations with him. I can only do that with my friend. As in girl friends.

4) Doesn't spam me with messages
Like okay if you text me, and I don't reply, don't mass send me with like a chain of messages asking a different kind of question each time. Its irritating. If I want to reply I will. If I don't it can mean two things. One, I don't want to reply. Two, I'm not holding on to my phone.

5) Knows the right balance between mushy and distant
I hate mushy stuffs. I really do. And it sucks even more if you expect me to. But once in a while, its fine.

6) Dresses well
Not always in t shirt and jeans and sneakers. It is very rare to find guys who dresses well. But you don't have to be wearing stuffy clothes to look good.

7) Understands my mood swings
This will be a bit hard. Oh well. And of course he'll be able to bear with my constant migraines and whining :)

Okay fine, I'm sort of losing the drift for this post again and I don't want it to be stuck back in my drafts so I shall just publish it.

Today ended on a good note. Its good to have a companion home. But yeah, somehow it feels like our friendship ends there. Which is, sad. I'm trying not to be too attached or succumb to my infatuation because it won't be long till he's leaving. Yes, this kind of thing always happens no matter where I work.

Tomorrow's another day. One day at a time. Whatever will be, will be.

Feelings evoked all over again

2011-09-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

So another long hiatus from the previous post. Work has been mundane. My life has been kind of...boring. Okay fine, work is work. Like I have a choice.

At first I thought that it will get better as I've mentioned that I made a new friend. But it hasn't been so good so far. So what if its a predominantly Chinese people company? Isn't English the universal language? Isn't English your first language? I get so pissed off with this issue super easily. Even though I can understand 75% of what they're saying but seriously? An iota of consideration would be very much appreciated. So I'm just like always sinking in my seat and hoping that I'm not there but at the same time I do not want to be alone either. Yeah, pathetic life I know.

But surprisingly, the person I thought that has some unknown reason to hate me actually turns out to be the better one. Today ended on a happier note. Though I'm not getting my hopes too high that the coming days will get any better. Knowing that tomorrow's a Friday is a consolation to me. It also means dress down = tee, jeans and Converse for me :)

So anyway enough with this work issue. Not that I can do anything about it. Other than learning to speak fluent Mandarin. Planning to but haven't got the means yet. And anyway why should I just to overcome this problem when they are perfectly capable of speaking English?

I'm gonna start my soliloquy rambling here.

After so long, I realised that I still like you. I didn't think that your presence would mean anything to me after awhile but I'm wrong. Hanging out with you just evokes that feeling. I don't know why and I hate it very much. I'm always the one hoping and hoping and it never happens. And in the end, I know you're going to end up as just another person that I used to like. For a long time. I kind of can't wait till you're gone. So then I don't have to think about you. Okay that's a lie, I will but at least I don't have to see your face. I'm never the kind who makes the first move, I'm never the kind to confess. At the end of the day, its my loss. Possibilities that it may, just may, work out. At the same time, commitment has never been my favourite word. I hate the idea of just one person. Its because I chose to be a coward that's why I'm still like this after 20 years. Though now, I feel like giving it a try. And I only want you.

Out of all the superpowers out there, I wish I can read people's mind.

I'll blog about Raya and my experiment with centre parting soon (I hope). Here's a sneak :)

So its another year to the age

2011-08-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for ages. Busy with work. And absolutely no mood to blog. I mean, who would want to read about the mundane life of working in an office. It is. Though now I have a new friend :) So life at work has been slightly better. Beats being a loner.

And yeah, I turned 20 on the 22nd :) Though it was a Monday so pretty much I spent my time at work. Plus no major celebrations other than the last minute dinner with family on the 23rd. But received lots of love from friends through Facebook and texts so I should be satisfied :)

Thank you to Lumlum, Sabrina, Dorothy, Yus, Jasmine, Felin, Weilin, Yanping, Jiahui, Gladys, Jieling, Doreen, Joan, Aznita, Busu and Angeline for the texts <3

Thank you to Jieling (not Wong), Yixin, Ika, Sabrina, Eda, Augustin, Lingfeng, Shay Zai, Amirah, RJ, Malcolm, Shi Hui, Michael, Peggie, Sherilynn, Daisy, Felin, Ruiling, Ming Hao, Ling Wei, Farrina, Xiao Fang, Liern, Sophie, Shi Shyan, Peh Huiting, Zara, Nurafifah, Stella, Ziubin, Farah, Cherie, Lester, Cik Lyn, Joelyn, Wanyu, Daniel, Sarah, Sam, Kai, Zac, Aznita, Rizman, Shermain, Nurlizah, Alex, Izzah, AmandaWong, Cindy, Ms Haslinda, Anirtha, Jane, Jieying, Ms Jenny, Jing Yi, Stephanie, Denise, Melissa, Vivian, Venus, Wing, Kate, Aishah, Brian, Doreen, Nurhafizah, Jeannie, Min Hui, Jasmine, AmandaSeah, Uncle, Yue Wen, Kok Heng, Harrith, Rebecca, Pamela, Beiling, Jayne, Jiayu, Azroy, Michelle, Maira, Quoway, Theodora, Elmer, Key Chee, Gekhwee, Daryl, Easie, Jonathan, Qiao Xia, Meiliang, Christian, Ming Wei, Donavan, Uncle Faris, Jing Jie, Zhijie, Gladys, Alynn, Yok San, TaniaOng, Benjamin, Mervin, Rina, Serene, Semantha, Steve, Kiat Seng, Eunice, Vicky, Cally, Emalia, Shazzy, Sya, Dhita, Charis, Azza, Shiying, PoYang, Nina, Jasmine, Zaahid, Wendy, Shermaine, Diyanah, Janice and Qide for the birthday wishes on my Facebook wall <3

Thank you to TaniaOng, Felin, Yus, Debbie, Cherie and Farah for the birthday tweets <3

Thank you to the 2 random people on Tagged and the other 2 random people on DGH Hideout! :)

And of course to my family <3

So yeah, though I didn't really celebrate but I feel loved. And yeah, next year, I'll turn THAT age 0.0

Dipping my toe in the adult zone

2011-08-06T14:12:00.000+08:00

1st of August. This is drafted on the 28th June since I'm super free and have nothing to do at this moment. On this day, I'll be starting my work and GE and I'll be sharing my experience later on in this post (obviously because it hasn't happened yet).

So anyway, August is a special month for me as it is the month that I'm born :) I always thought that August is the best month ever. I bet everyone else have the same sentiments as me. But this year is different because I'll be stepping into the 20s zone. I'll be turning 20 on the 22nd.

Even when I was young, I never wanted to grow up. Whenever something good happens, I'll be hoping that time stands still. Because I know that everything good will come to an end. Its ephemeral. Its inevitable that life has to go on. 19 years of my life has passed. And yeah, I think I regret most of it. Moving on, I'm hoping to be a more mature person with visionary thinking and succeed in all that I set out to do.

My birthday wish:
I'll be happy & I'll spend it with people I love :)

I don't want to have a birthday list for my wants because everything that I want is way too beyond my reach at the moment and there's no way I want anyone to spend so much on me. So I'll be happy with some thought and deliberation and of course, love.

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I just realised I left this in my draft. And yes, its 6th August today which means that one week has passed since I started working. I know its insane to start counting down now but its 11 more weeks to go :)

Work has been fine. Did filing, stapling, mailing, issuing/editing policies and more filing this past 5 days. But believe it or not, no matter how manageable it sounds, it is still super tiring. I come home feeling drained every day. Partly the fact that I'm fasting. Not the hunger part or the thirsty part but its the waking up early part. Since I wake up at 5am to have my pre dawn meal, I only have 1 1/2 hours to sleep back before I have to get ready for work. And I'm the kind of person who won't be able to fall asleep as soon as my head touches the pillow :( So imagine even if I were to sleep at 11pm (a far cry from my normal 3am), I only have 6hours of sleep everyday.

Anyway, even though its all fine and dandy now, I'm dreading 11th. Because Deb will not longer be working there and I have to figure out what to do for my lunch break. Adding on to it, I'm dreading 1st September more because fasting has ended which means I have to figure out where and who to eat lunch with. There's not one friendly face that could offer me a lunch break company.

That's all for now. I will probably be on hiatus again and only blog on the weekends.

A propitious vision waiting to be fulfilled

2011-07-28T16:21:00.000+08:00

Since I'm waiting for my download to be completed (Family Outing S02), I shall blog for a bit now.

Went Geylang to shop for Raya clothes yesterday. I sort of have a love hate relationship with the fasting and raya period. I can be socially awkward with people that I'm not close to or rub me off the wrong way so I don't really communicate much to my cousins. Not that I have an extreme aversion towards them or whatnot, I just don't know what to communicate with them. I'm beatific enough in my own world.

I'm sort of dreading this year, though. There will be no doubt questions about what I'm doing now, blablabla. And though I already have plans and a vision, I do feel a modicum of...insecurity. Obviously because there's no evasion of the comparison issue. But hmm, I daresay there's no one in my immediate family that has gone to university? So yeah, I hope that everyone will just mind their own business and don't ask so much questions. Private university or not, I know what I'm capable of.

By the way, yesterday while shopping, we decided to go City Plaza. I've heard from my friends about it but I've never been there before. Its so far off from where I live. However, I've got to say I'm in love with the place. Not that its full of cheap stuffs or what but the prices are reasonable enough and there are some hidden treasures here and there. Bought 3 tops in total. Although I'm only fully satisfied with one.

Abrupt end of topic.

It kind of annoys me that he just decides to communicate with me again. And I can't help it but an iota of me feels that his actions is motivated by some hidden motive now. Okay I'm sorry, but the feeling is unavoidable. Nevertheless, I will just try to remain passive and will not disclose my true suspicion.

Including today, 4 more days of indolence left.

You don't mess with the best

2011-07-28T01:56:00.001+08:00

2NE1's new song is out and I'm loving it very much. Though Lonely remains as my ultimate favourite but this is definitely in my Top 10 :)

Check out the MV:

Although I wished the MV was better but I'm loving the outfits. Their style is my ultimate favourite. I haven't got around to blogging the whole process of me totally hating them (I did!) and now loving (only) 2NE1 because it will take me forever to gather the sources and recall everything. So this is 10 reasons why I love them:

1) You just won't know what to expect from them. Its like one moment its some noisy electronic song and the next its pop rock and the next ballad. Its amazing how talented Teddy is and how versatile the girls are.

2) Their style is no joke at all. One leggings can cost 100USD. And plus they look amazing in anything. No matter how weird it looks like on its own. They rock whatever they wear.

3) They don't have to rely on looks to get where they are now. I swear I bashed them like mad when they first came out. I'm like wtf they're so ugly! But so what if they are. They've got talent and they've got swag :) Even though now I admit that they're not as ugly as I think they are. I was just at my extreme superficial point then.

4) Awards are just bonus to them. I think all of the people in YG attends brainwash classes to tell them that awards aren't everything. Seriously, they perform because they love to and they're happy when they win awards. But YG himself don't care about them. Why on earth would he release four songs as singles knowing that there's no way they can win on music shows without album sales? Except for Inkigayo.

5) Each member is unique. I'm a fan of Dara. Still am but I've learnt to love all four of them. And all of them stands out. A lot of groups nowadays only have certain members that stands out. These people makes the group known. But not 2NE1. Dara is known for her dorky ways and her constant updates on her me2day. And of course her famous past and her fanboys. Bom is known for her unique vocals, her weird antics, diet and her figure. CL is known for her charisma, stage presence and the bad ass leader. Minzy is the maknae, who's maturing fast and an amazing dancer.

6) They stay out of the limelight yet they're so damn famous. They don't go to variety shows. The shows they've been in can be counted with the fingers. And when they do go, they entertain with their awkward yet entertaining ways. They don't have to try so hard, they just stand out.

7) They don't have to expose themselves to be sexy and a force to be reckoned with. I mean seriously, they are practically the most covered idols out there. Only Bom wears those short dresses. Other than that nothing much.

8) Have to bear in mind that they are rookies and they debut 2 years ago only. Even then, their debut was explosive. Watch them here. (Embedding is disabled for god knows what reason) The best ever debut performance up to date.

9) They don't rush comebacks, they sometimes infuriates the fans with the wait. Yes this is true but it just increases the anticipation. But every time they do, they don't disappoint. Their comeback was 1 year after their debut. 1 freaking long year. And yeah, they lose fans along the way but that's the thing they don't really care. They are happy with their fans, whoever and how many there are.

10) Who else can style their hair weirdly, wear weird and loud clothes, dance very little and not very syncronised with each other (compared to others), doesn't sound awesome in MR Removed videos where there's dancing but are just amazing singers who can't sing and dance so much at the same time, doesn't have to worry about dancing and prancing around on stage with heels because they're wearing sneakers and is just plain awesome?

My Top 10 favourites:

1) Lonely 2) In the Club 3) It Hurts 4) Don't Cry 5) Go Away 6) Hate You

7) Ugly 8) Love is Ouch 9) Don't Stop the Music 10) You and I

The rest are as follows:

Lollipop, I am the Best, Kiss, Clap your Hands, Please Don't Go, Stay Together,

I'm Busy, I Don't Care (Raggae Mix), Let's go Party, Pretty Boy, Try to Copy Me,

I Don't Care, Can't Nobody, Can't Nobody (English), Fire

Yeah I hate their debut song. Oh the irony.

I find myself kind of affected with the hating that they're getting from their song. Even my own friend thinks so and its saddening really. They are not ugly and the lyrics are supposed to be meaningful. Not everyone is born pretty in this world. I've got to admit, I've always thought I'm ugly. And seriously, you don't like then just fuck off and keep your comments to yourself. Those haters are annoying. Whoever say that Park Bom and Sandare Park is ugly seriously needs to get their eyes checked. CL and Minzy's prettiness doesn't really show but they are >:(

Oh well, I guess I have to accept that everyone have different tastes and well, good looking people are appealing.

Will blog again later on how I spend my Wednesday :) I will not spoil my 2NE1 post.

Lost in the intricate fantasy of the mind

2011-07-26T16:56:00.000+08:00

I'm spending my final 6 days of freedom with dramas, dramas and more dramas. And blogging and doing pointless stuffs that I always do.

Re-watched Mars yesterday night and I just finished watching it like 5 minutes ago. I must say its my favourite drama of all time. Although there's complex characters and complicated pasts but the love between the two leads surpasses everything. No wonder Vic Chou and Barbie Hsu got together after. I swear its the most intense drama that I've watched. Especially the scene where they *ehem* made love. Not that they show all the graphics.

And what intrigued me very much is how much I realised that I want to have so many of the characters in my real life. I want my boyfriend to be like Chen Ling (Vic Chou). All tough, reckless and stubborn but when it comes to love, he's willing to sacrifice. I so love the way he protects his girlfriend. And the good thing is that they're not too touchy and not too clingy to each other. When he leaves, he just have to say, "I'm leaving. Bye bye." Yet in more intense setting, he gives that longing stare. Okay words can't really describe my point. Point is, he's my ideal guy :)

Plus there is all the supporting casts. I want a best friend like Qingmei. The way she speaks up for her friends is remarkable. The way she speaks her mind is refreshing. She may be brash and rash but she's rational enough to control her own emotions. Of course I'm not saying that I don't love my friends. I do. But I've never come across someone who is devoted to friendship like she is.

Another last thing. I want my boyfriend's best friend to be like Da Ye. Even though he doesn't understand his best friend at times, but he sticks by him and supports him. And is willing to give up his love for the happiness of his best friend. Ultimate plus point, takes care of the best friend's girlfriend very well.

Oh this doesn't happen in the real world. Its just some intricate fantasy of mine that I doubt will ever come to life. Its a dream, yes but it doesn't hurt to dream isn't it? I love to daydream and think up of all the unrealistic scenarios and I'll be gratified even though I know I can never get them.

Right now I'm just having my own karaoke session. And enjoying it very much.

Good laced with bad, is bad

2011-07-25T19:23:00.000+08:00

So I will not be a sloth anymore. I'll be starting work on Monday and the contract's for 3 months. Though its the same company as D, its a different department. Which sucks. Its a different level altogether. Urgh, but never mind, I did my calculations yesterday night and if I'm able to save $850 every month for the next 12 months (which is 1 year) I'll be able to raise $10k :) Sounds impossible, but I'm working towards it. I will, I must, I can. For the sake of education and my pride, I will prove to everyone that I'm not all talk, no action. Like some people.

I had a We Got Married marathon last night. And I think I'll continue again today since there's no new subbed episodes of City Hunter and Heartstrings. I'm a big fan of dramas although sometimes I get sick of them after say, 3 episodes? Then I'll stop watching them for a month or so and then watch them again with renewed interest. Not only Korean dramas but English shows as well. For now, I stopped watching The Vampire Diaries Season 2 after 10 episodes and Pretty Little Liars Season 2 as well. Probably will start again. Not very soon though.

There's about 15 dramas (Taiwan and Korean) in my external hard drive.

1) Meteor Garden 1 - I actually enjoyed it very much. I watched it more than once. 4 times, I think? I have no idea why I like it so much. It is sort of draggy halfway through and some brainless stuffs somewhere as well. People say the 2nd season is boring so I didn't watch.

LOL at their faces! Even Vic Chou looks bad here LOL.

2) Mars - Another favourite. I watched it 3 times. This drama is kind of intense with the characters having lots of complicated pasts. Part of the reason why I like this story so much is because of Vic Chou. I've always liked him :)

Oh yeah. You can never go wrong with bikes!

3) Silence - A so so drama. Watched it twice. Yes, there's Vic Chou in it. But the story is touching and I think someone died in the end. Can't remember. (There's only posters in portrait which I hate so I will not post it up)

4) Witch Yoo Hee - The first Korean drama that I watched. Watched it 3 times. Its kind of cute how the main leads got together. And how the girl was so awkward at first. But she's really pretty!

See, the girl is pretty! Oh yeah and the angmoh guy (Y)

5) You're Beautiful - I watched this when I was supposed to be studying for exams. I remembered there is like 5 days break before the next paper? And I was so hooked I couldn't stop watching. Finished watching it in 3 days and I watched it a couple more times after. The nicest part of this drama is all the eye candies (Y)

Jang Geun Seuk, Lee Hongki, Jung Yong Hwa FTW

6) Hi, My Sweetheart - Cute story and pretty sad too. And there's Show Luo which is an ultimate plus. But the storyline is really quite cliche so I only watched it once.

Rainie's look is nice in the drama btw

7) Secret Garden - This is another drama that I was so hooked into. I think I watched this during MST period. Storyline is unique though a bit unrealistic and the push and pull between the two leads gets kind of annoying at times. But overall its good.

Best drama ever :)

8) Playful Kiss - Good if you like brainless stories where boy hates girl but ends up liking her and if you like Kim Hyun Joong, not his acting. Which I do. But one thing I hate about the drama is that it makes it look like the girl is so stupid; forever pining and crying for the guy. And KHJ acting kinda sucks.

Posters are all in portrait. But since KHJ is cute...

9) Boys Over Flowers - The Korean version of Meteor Garden which is much better and more eye candies. Like the Taiwan version, it is draggy but the casts makes it better. Like I said, there are 4 eye candies. Taiwanese version, there's only Vic Chou and Jerry Yan. 4 triumphs over 2 :)

I see 5 pretty people

10) Prosecutor Princess - Surprisingly, I liked this show very much. When my friend recommended it to me, I thought I wouldn't because its not like a high school/college setting which I like. And the casts doesn't look pretty. The story is like Legally Blonde? A girl who is all about fashion and such who comes across as a bimbo and strives to prove herself. And of course some relationship problems here and there. (All posters in portrait)

11) Marry Me, Mary - The worst drama ever. Ever. Ever. It is so boring. And yeah I'm such a visual and superficial person that the reason I watched it till the end is because of Jang Geun Seuk and the other guy lead. But yeah its boring.

By the way, I hate JGS hair here

12) Jungle Fish 2 - The whole mystery concept is very intriguing and exciting. And the cast is all very good looking as well BUT the ending is like... When the whole scandal was exposed and the mystery was unveiled, my reaction was like, what the fuck. Seriously, you'd - okay fine, I did - thought that its some high profile secret. I mean a girl committed suicide!! Its not worth it to lose her life, seriously. But like I said, its intriguing. Only the ending is anti climax. (All portraits as well)

13) God of Study - Cute, very cute. I guess it was supposed to be inspiring? But sorry, I can't get inspired from watching dramas. About five kids who are very bad in their studies. And obviously in the end, they all succeed. Okay not all. 2 of them got into the best college or something like that.

The centre kid and the one on the far right is cute!

14) Coffee Prince - I watched this before when they show it on Channel U but I remembered missing parts of it. Pretty draggy and the lighting's have that kind of dark and dingy feeling. Maybe its just my video. Not a very good drama. (Since I don't really like the show, no poster)

15) My Fair Lady - Which I haven't watch. I think I watched like 3 episodes? But it doesn't entice me to continue watching so it is not very interesting. (ditto)

I watched Personal Taste and Dream High off YouTube but did not download them. Personal Taste is fine. There's one song in the OST which is particularly memorable. But the whole drama, not as much. Though there's Lee Minho! Dream High is full of pretty casts but there's too much drama and crying. And some of them cannot really act.

Good looking casts though

Lee Minho is uber cute

Now watching City Hunter and Heartstrings! City Hunter is good. It has lots of action and its exciting when Lee Minho fights. The storyline is kind of good as well. I've never been a fan of action dramas because sometimes they can be fake but the actors for this one is good. I hope the ending will live up to my expectation though! I'm guessing someone will die. And its a main character. Sounds sadistic but that's how I think the story should end. And plus Lee Minho wears pink pants in every other episode. Heartstrings is pretty much college setting as well. But there's a musical storyline. So far so good. But the people who likes each other have to get together like now. Its annoying when they stare into space supposedly thinking of the other person and the sad song plays in the background.

The girl's damn pretty

Pretty, pretty casts :)

Okay I'm starting to think that this post is getting kind of long winded. But sharing is caring :)

That's all for now. Will be updating on my job when the time comes! Which is one week for now. Anyone have any job recommendations where I can work weekdays after 6.30pm and Sundays? :) At least $7/h pay! Text me, text me.

I never liked Sundays

2011-07-24T16:10:00.000+08:00

Barely 12 hours has passed since I last blogged and here I am again. I'm having cramps and in a foul mood and people in the house is not helping at all. I just don't understand why they never seemed to understand the word stop. They flare up at the wrong time and I'm the bad person for asking them to stop. 19 years of living and I still don't understand.

Okay this is like 40 minutes later. Am watching live streaming of Inkigayo. But Tara is performing now so I'm just letting it play in the background. Okay I just went back again. This blog post is taking like 2 hours to be composed.

Every day when I wake up, I'll be thinking so what to do today. Feels like I've lost my direction in life and I'm pretty much lost. I love to write but my English is not that fantastic. My English teachers always say that I can speak better than I can write. Which I feel is a given because when you speak as long as there is confidence people don't really care about tenses and such. Except maybe if there is a really jarring pronunciation mistake. But there are others saying that you'll speak the way you write. So yeah, that statement totally contradicts the truth to my case. I love learning new words. I used to read dictionaries. Although now the only word that I can remember from those dictionary-reading-time is ephemeral.

I have absolutely no confidence at all in anything. Even though I'm currently considering a Degree in Communications with Public Relations and Journalism major, I still don't know whether I should. Communications courses are very popular all the time. I like the idea of this degree because there is Journalism. Always been interested in Journalism but never have a hand in it. And I always have this idea that Comms students are way too flashy and extrovert and loud. Which I'm not. How if I end up with all those people with personalities that stands out so much and overpowers everyone else in the room? I can never be like that.

All this mulling over and worrying about the fees (Its 37k+ for 2 years in PSB Academy) is taking up too much of my time. Its all I think about. Other than the phone call from GE which I missed and they never called back.

This is a very, very random post and my thoughts are all over the place. Nevertheless, I just feel like rambling so I will not make this private. There's too many private posts that I've had so far.

Another random thing, Harry Potter is infesting Tumblr. Its like all over. But I like, so no complains there. Tumblr is awesome this way :)

So yeah, that's all for now.

Just the thought excites me

2011-07-24T03:30:00.000+08:00

I've been rambling a lot on my Livejournal so there isn't much update here. However, most of them are locked posts where only Dorothy can read them :)

This week I was strictly confining myself at home due to the lack of income coming in and the over catching up on my social life the previous week. I managed to keep to that until Friday. Which means that I stayed home from last Sunday so that's like 5 days at home. Went to catch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 with Sabrina on Friday. And I came like 10 minutes after the movie started. Never been so late in my whole life for a movie before. Never ever came after the advertisements in fact! So sorry to Sab who reached way earlier.

After 10 years, it has finally come to an end. I have to say that as much as I enjoy the movies very much, it doesn't do justice to the books at all. The contents are way too summarised but it is not concise at all. The deaths in the last book especially. It wasn't even that devastating on screen, to be honest. And yeah I've always thought the ending is a tad too anti climatic. Having said all of the above, I would admit on two things. Firstly, if they were to make movies just like the way it is in books, they will all be like 5 hours long. Secondly, if the ending is not a happy ending, then it wouldn't end at 7. J.K. Rowling will probably have to continue writing the Harry Potter series. Like, Harry Potter in the Underworld.

Okay, not funny. This is what happens when I have the itch to blog at 2am in the morning. But really, the books are way awesome. I have everything plus I've got 2 copies of Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (that's the second one). And I probably read them more than 5 times. For all 7 books.

Had a family gathering today, yesterday since today is already Sunday. And today will be another staying at home Sunday. I am so broke the thoughts of going out is like the last thing on my mind. Yeah, I need a job like asap but I am not seeking. I'm such a sloth I know.

The reason why I'm so broke is because I went out like everyday the previous week. Never ever before in my whole life have I ever been so in touch with my social life. I stayed home on Monday. Went for lunch with Daniel on Tuesday. Lunch at Seoul Garden with Sab and Liern on Wednesday before meeting Wendy and Debbie for dinner. In my defense, I didn't eat a full dinner. Just a few popcorn chicken. Treated my mum to Manhattan Fish Market dinner on Thursday where I spent like $60+ that day alone (no, not only on the meal). Went seeking for Aznita's birthday presents on Friday with Yus and we had Macs dinner as well. And then I was so exhausted I forgot to set my alarm, did not go for training on Saturday but went for Az's 21st celebration in the evening. And I stayed home on Sunday.

A week full of meeting different people but it contributed to my lack of money now. Boo hoo.

To be honest, I've always loved staying at home. The only bad thing is the part where I'll be glued to my laptop from the time I wake up (that's 1pm) till the wee hours of the morning (that's 3am. Or 4am) and I'll have to bear my mum nagging to me about it. I will have my own movie marathons where I watch all the chick flicks that I downloaded or watching like multiple episodes of shows like Ugly Betty/90210/Gossip Girl etc. And I'll be scrolling mindlessly on Tumblr, reading people's tweets on Twitter, playing Sorority Life on Facebook, chatting with people on Facebook, checking out people's new photos on their Facebook, playing Sally's Salon/Spa/Studio. And sometimes when I'm in the mood, catching up with books on my Adobe Digital Editions. See, I can do so much on my laptop. There is absolutely no need for me to get up at all. Just to bathe, eat, drink, shit, sleep obviously. And the best part is, home cook food is free :)

I think I desperately need to buy another shoe. I can list all my shoes because I remember them all. There's my off-white Converse which is what I've been wearing every day, the red shoe that I wore twice, the blue plimsolls that I wore once, the Levi's army-print flats which I wore thrice but is already like 4 years old (because it always gives me blisters), Mondo flats, Rubi black flats for formal/work purposes, Nike white sneakers for Hip Hop, black heels which was for Waves 14 performance and my worn out Ipanema black slippers. My mum made me threw away my favourite Everlast off white plimsolls because they are super worn out. They don't sell that at Everlast anymore :( And today I wore my black slippers with Baju Kurung all the way to Yishun for a Thanksgiving ceremony. I'm never the kind who buy shoes or bags and I really think I should buy some. When I have the money that is.

I want this kind of shoe

And oxfords and black Converse. Oh man, talking about this is depressing because I'm starting to see a number 2 in my bank account balance which is bad. Very bad.

My eyes are starting to have that cold feeling and it means that I'm sleepy. And I'm hungry. Oh god this is bad.

Shall end my post now. Expect more of this kind of posts in the days to come. Wordy and occasional, random pictures from Tumblr. I have lost my mood in making photo collages already.

Goodnight.

When the messenger has lost all its fun

2011-07-10T02:24:00.001+08:00

Haven't updated for oh so long already. Partly cuz I've been going out a lot and of course the major part is the lazy part. No surprises there.

Couldn't sleep yet cuz I had an evening nap just now so I'm pretty much very fresh. Anyway plans for tomorrow is only in the evening anyways (watching TBG!) so I can pretty much sleep past 12pm :) Training today was fun. Yes, I went. And I'm predicting a very achy Sunday >.< So rusty already. I wonder when I will go back to my hardworking-super-awesome-dance-mode that I had briefly in Year 2. A very, very brief period. With lots of hardcore dancing and performances.

So a lot of people have been asking me about MSN. Or the proper term Windows Live Messenger and why I'm never online (If you're under my SDZ-ians and DEPM group, you would see me online like right now).

1) With the 2011 version you cannot block people
Seriously annoying that I cannot block people. I want to be online but I just don't want to be seen online by this, this, this and this person. With the 2011 version you can choose who you want to appear online to. Like tonight, I was only chatting with a few people so I'm only online to this 2 groups of people. I have 14 groups in total.

2) I have to appear online in order to talk to people
I think the root of the problem is seriously the 2011 version la. Although I've got to admit that it looks way more chio but seriously. I cannot talk to people when I'm appearing offline though I can choose to only appear online to THAT person in order to talk to him/her.

3) Random people hitting on you
I know in the first place I shouldn't be adding all these people but well, that's what blocking is for isn't it? So when there's like occasions where I forgot and am suddenly online to everyone, all these irritating people start to talk to me. And its annoying cuz I don't want to talk to them >.<

4) Hanging conversations
Super super super hate those people who start a conversation with you and then just leave you hanging for like 10-20 minutes before they reply a stupid, 'haha'. I think having to wait for more than 3 minutes for a reply when you're chatting is already bad enough. I mean what's the point of chatting if you're gonna do other stuffs right. Though sometimes I'm guilty of doing that. But its always the case where that person takes so long to reply so I replied and I was thinking heck, I'll have to wait another like 5 minutes so I'll put my video on full screen and I disabled the sound and then I got so engrossed with watching the show and when I remembered shit, I was chatting, I went back and the previous person replied like super long ago HAHA. But I swear its only exception cases. And best is those that just say, 'Hello' then I replied and they never reply back. 5 minutes later, the person is offline. Seriously wtf.

5) Boring black fonts
HAHA okay I know this is personal opinion but when I'm chatting, I kinda get turned off if your font is the normal black don't know what font. The default one. Ok I'm a total sucker for personalisation and I don't see the point of using the standard thing when you can change it to be how you want it to be. Ok fine, I'm just being picky.

6) Annoying emoticons
Or whatever that thing is called where some animated object substitute a word or expression. If its just one or two its fine, but some is really like one whole chunk. The whole sentence is filled with emoticons. How on earth am I supposed to decipher them you tell me?! Normally I couldn't be bothered and just try to like crap my way through on reading what it means LOL.

7) Abbreviations
I know that its like an unsaid rule to use abbreviations when you are chatting. But I really hate those. I even hate using those in text messages. I don't know why. Maybe because sometimes when I text with certain people they use absurd abbreviations that doesn't make sense and I have to like stare and decipher the meaning for like 3 minutes? Its really ridiculous and annoying I swear. The only abbreviations I use is lol, cuz, wtf, wth, otw, omw, btw, anw. What else. Can't remember. But really, if you have encountered the abovementioned people who use way ridiculous abbreviations, you would hate them as well. And in a way writing the words in full will improve your spelling wouldn't it?

Bottomline is, MSN is just no fun anymore. Twitter triumphs over everything. Screw the 140 word limit its still the best, I swear.

I wanted to blog about Yus' surprise 20th birthday celebration @ Jieling's place but I got lazy to compile the photos so I shall just share my favourite photo :)

We all look so cute (Y)

And this was taken today:

The people I love and the major reason why I never want to graduate ♥

In my own artistic world

2011-06-18T20:36:00.001+08:00

Hey ho its Saturday. Which means one thing. Another week is ending and July is looming + August and my future is still unclear. Urgh.

So anyway, I always have this fetish of taking 'artistic' shots involving inanimate objects when I go out or to eat. It irritates some people cuz they don't see the point in taking pictures without faces in it. Which is extremely narcissistic. Not that I don't have those camwhore shots, I do but sometimes you just gotta bask in your surroundings and capture them :)

The DEPM 01 people had a mini gathering on the 10th June @ Earle Swensen's. Its mini cuz only like what, 10 people turned up? Only half of the class. I had a busy day that day. Went for camp briefing (which I will talk about later as well. The camp, I mean. Not the briefing. HAHA) and then met up with Felin @ BHG to collect our pay. Oh and I probably haven't mentioned but the pay's extremely good. Since its under BHG directly and not through agent, we get the full amount and CPF not cut :) I know that CPF's is extremely important for the future. But come on, I already have 1k+ and I'm only 19. You gotta let me have some money on my own to spend man. So I was hoping at least $400 and I got $800+ :D Felin's was like 1k+ cuz she started under BHG like one week before me >.< I would have gotten way higher if I had ended with the agent same time as her! Tsk. And then we hung out at Macs where I ate some junk food before I went off to Vivo for the above mentioned dinner. After dinner, some of us hung out at the skypark @ Vivo (is that what its called? I'm not sure). There were some fireworks as well apparently from USS and some crane show which is so damn tiny we couldn't really make out anything at all. HAHA.

I don't really know what's the difference between Earle Swensen's and Swensen's actually. I will eat the same thing each time so no difference to me. Maybe the price? Hmm, I don't know.

So yeah, back to artistic shots. LF actually passed me her camera to take her pictures + the other classmates' photos but obviously I got bored and started taking the stuffs on the table. And fine, although the photos are not exactly artistic on its own but with added effects, it sure has that artistic feel. Like those posted on Tumblr you know :)

I'll show you the comparisons:

Original photo #1

Actually quite artistic already right!!! HAHAHAH.

Edited

See so chio :)

Original photo #2

Edited

I super like this one!! Self praise.

Oh and you know how food menu always manage to make food look very tempting, when its actually not that fantastic? I tried that too ;)

Original

Not that tempting right? But

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Tadaahhhhhh :)))

HAHAHHAAHHA. See I told you, I can be artistic.

Okay seems like I'm entertaining myself :) I used Picasa to edit by the way. I'm too lazy to use Photoshop. Its a tad too complicated for me to play around on my own. Okay fine, I'm just lazy.

Time for photos with people in it. Qide came later and Wanyu was overseas so its only me and Debbie.

Both of us look very tired. But at least cannot really see my dark rings :)

And the annoying iPhone also has their own effects thingy. HMPH I'm still bitter that I'm not yet an owner of one :(

This according to LF is her artistic shot of me taking an artistic shot. HAHA.

I like this one though!

- End of topic -

Okay I know I said that I was going to blog about camp but I'm tired now so maybe next post :)

Major wishes:

1) Dad will finally give in to me

2) Acceptance letter

Please please please please please please.

Nothing is lost at all

2011-06-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

So this is a post on The Royal Dance Off competition on the 4th of June that I attended to support my modern girls :) Though they didn't win, I thought that they did pretty awesome. Its sort of surreal to be in the crowd watching your own friends dance on stage yet they portray so much emotions and maturity that makes them complete strangers. Yeah I actually had that feeling. And then the self destruction feeling comes after that >.< Oh well. And the other competitors, well the whole thing was really awesome. They all make it look so damn easy on stage.

Pictures time :)

A portion of SDZ that came down. Some of them not pictured.

Really heartening to see hiphoppers and bboys coming down to support although there is another hiphop competition going on at the same time :)

Change girls + Weilin + me :)

These are actually my favourite shots for the day. Cuz my hair looks awesome and the girls pretty :)

With the Veins girls and Modern alumnus :)

Went supper after that and catch up a bit with the girls. Had lotsa fun.

- End of topic -

So tomorrow is camp for the freshies. I'm half looking forward to it and half dreading it. Its a normal feeling for me. I just hope that everything will go smoothly and everyone will have fun.

And apparently I'll have lots of convincing to do before I can get an iPhone -.- My dad don't find the need to spend so much over a phone (though I'm paying) and when he's past that issue, he don't find the need to change the plan cuz apparently he don't see the need for 3g usage -.- Oh what a miserable life. I'm not backing down though. I'm not.

Twilight on TV now. I watched it twice already so I'm not really paying attention to it. The Vampire Diaries is wayyy better. I just watched Ep 9 and 10 of Season 2. Damn slow I know but I didn't have time to catch up with it and I get sick of things very fast so I was sick of watching TVD for a period of time. HAHAHAH.

I will be painting my nails tonight so I guess I will have to go to bed soooooooon.

When all you want to do is sleep

2011-06-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

My favourite kind of look :) But I think it looks better on skinny people :/

Drinking apple juice and eating Lay's Sour Cream & Onion. And no its not the healthy kind of apple juice. At least I don't think so. The brand is No Frills and its really cheap + kinda sweet. HAHAHAH. But its my favourite. Cuz its sweet, as simple as that :)

Okay I did not decide to come to Blogger to suddenly talk about my unhealthy diet. I just have a lot to look forward to this couple of days I think. I've been staying at home for the past 3 days and as much as I like the peace of no one bothering to talk to me (because of a current cold war), I'm going to grow my lazy bones again. I can already feel it. Sleeping at 3am and waking up at 1pm. And using laptop all day longgggg.

So what are my plans? Prep camp tomorrow. Not looking forward but neither am I hating it. Cuz hey its supposed to be fun but the games briefing sounds really gross >.< But anyway, I am supposed to have a right whether or not I want to play right! And then its mum's birthday on the 9th. Though I don't know whether or not there are any plans. Like I said, cold war is brewing. I guess the 2 best friends in the house can just go out and have fun. I don't really care. But I just have to make the day free cuz its like an unspoken rule or something.

And then I think I'll be enjoying Friday very much. Meeting Felin to go BHG and get my pay (I hope its at least 400) and then we'll be having lunch and probably walking around and then I'll be going to Harbourfront to have dinner with my classmates! Well, ex classmates. HAHAH. Just hoping that Thursday will go well so that I can actually go out on Friday >.<

As usual, Saturday is modern training. And I think the following week will be the actual camp :)

I'm kind of proud of myself that I have not spent any of my 2nd pay yet. And I'll be getting my 3rd soon! Well, I shouldn't be actually cuz I blew my 1st pay :( Sounds weird that I only work for like 1 month +? and my pay is segregated to 3 pays. Oh well, I'm not complaining.

Okay I'm sort of rambling am I?

Hope that tomorrow will go well! :)

The middle child syndrome

2011-06-05T22:27:00.001+08:00

Proof that I have too much time in my hands: I'm blogging everyday.

Not that its a bad thing :) But I guess people rarely blogs nowadays? Just maybe reblogging from Tumblr or tweeting on Twitter or stalking people on FB (which I also do btw).

So yeah. I've been having some issues at home. And I always question myself whether its just me or that people around me is really just so... annoying. And I'm reminded of something. The middle child syndrome.

Oh yeah. It does exists, you know. And *gasp* it can be chronic. Okay, I shouldn't be so dramatic. But I know whatever I'm feeling is not just because of me its also based on how people around me treats me.

First of all. I am the middle child (duh) and I have an elder sister 2 years older than me and a younger sister 3 years younger than me. As usual, I relied on Mr. Google again today and this is a few things that pops up.

*Excerpts in italics. In brackets are my thoughts. HAHA.

- The eldest child is the leader and he has strong decisive qualities that allow him to make firm decisions. This may be due to the expectations and special attention given to him by his parents. (Sort of true in my case).

- The youngest child is often lax and confident (erm no), probably the loudest (when she's fighting with me) and sometimes spoiled (not sometimes, all the time) because the parents have used up their energies disciplining the others. The youngest is not pressured than the eldest but never the less, she is give then attention she deserves.

- The middle child, is not given much attention (yeah true). Some characteristics: low self-esteem (yes), need support for anything they do (kind of), sometimes talents are wasted when they do not pursue their dreams (I don't know about this), feeling of emptiness (kinda), always lonely and jealous of others (yeah sort of), may be a little weird (this, I hope not), unfriendly (and this, I don't think so either) and even worse, psychotic because of the loneliness (haha no, I don't think so).

- Middle children have to try a little harder to 'be heard' or get noticed. The middle child usually has to fight harder for the attention of their parents and therefor crave the family spotlight.

- Middle children tend to be the family diplomats. They dislike conflicts and seek fairness and justice. They're 'people pleasers'. (oh so true. The many fights that I have to break -.-)

- Lack self confidence, would prefer to be followers rather than leaders, don't have the focus or the drive to achieve anything in life. They just take life as they come and don't make special efforts to do anything.

- They don't mingle much with people and don't have many friends. (this is kind of not true? HAHAHA.)

- They don't believe in relationship. Even if they try to maintain one, they are hardly successful due to lack of interest. (yeah true)

- They are a little shy and don't like to be the center of attention. But they would ensure that they do enough to keep things going. This attitude can be seen at school and at work place. (ditto)

- Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow.

- They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project. (LOL yes very true)

The positive:

- Extremely artistic and creative. If they get the right direction they can do wonders in the world of art and literature. They are not good at working under pressure nor do they like monotonous work.

The career I should go into?

- Jobs in writing or journalism. In these fields they would get a chance to bring out their pent up feelings. The pressure would be less as they are flexible in terms of hours of work and variety would be in their projects as well.

And my soulmate has to be the youngest in the family. Hmm.

This whole huge chunk has its truth embedded here and there. But some, I don't know. I guess I need an outsider point of view. I couldn't judge myself. It will just be plainly biased.

Some parts puzzles me. Especially about my career path. Now that I'm extremely confused over what I should do, this makes me even more confused. I'm not creative. At all. When people can come up with such fascinating themes or even like a group name that is not laughable or lame, I couldn't. I won't be the one who come up with the best ideas during brainstorming. And artistic?? No freaking way. I sort of hate art. I can't draw for nuts. I only like to draw architectural stuffs like how I want my room to look like and such. But that's not artistic! I can't even draw a proper star?? Ya I know retarded.

Writing and journalism. I've tried writing books but never finished them. Just maybe like 1 or 2 chapters and then I'll chuck it aside cuz I think its too lame. And endless. Since I don't really plan them beforehand. Journalism? What exactly does a journalist do anyway?

- off to google -

Oh okay. I really couldn't picture myself. And writing and journalism is not a career path recommended in Singapore isn't it? I myself shun local writers. Okay not shun, just never read them.

This research just depresses me more >.<

Sources: here, here, here, here & here.

The life of no life

2011-06-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

An apt photo for a graduation post :)

Okay I know I said I'll be blogging about graduation next but I'm having some issues with mum and I have yet to transfer the photos taken from the camera to my laptop. So yeah the collection of pictures taken during graduation is incomplete and I can't blog about it. Silly rule for procrastinating I know. But oh well.

But its not exactly procrastinating cuz in this post, I'll be uploading the photos that people tagged me on Facebook :)

So the rule was to wear a white formal top with collar + formal black pants/skirt and black shoes. I think it must be all black la. But obviously I don't like them any other way so I shall just stick with black. I wore my mum's white top (cuz mine looked damn crumpled though its ironed already), black formal pants that I just bought the other time for only 20 bucks (yes cheap I know!! But it fits really well and its not like bell bottom or loose or super ahma high waisted like my previous one) and my black flats from Cotton On (which is 2 for $25 and which I still have another unworn pair). And I had my hair down cuz I wanted people to see that I cut my hair (but actually people been telling me there's not much difference. Which is very saddening cuz the amount of hair I've lost is really a lot >.<). And also I was so tired from the full shift the previous day that I didn't paint my nails :(

I had to meet Jiahui earlier to get from her the robes. But I was quite late. I should have come earlier to take pictures with her and Gladys @ their graduation but I couldn't wake up >.< So anyway, Jiahui got so excited about taking pictures with our robes. The minute I came, she insisted that we take pictures. HAHA. The robes is no joke I swear. Its fucking hot. Like sauna.

THIS IS MY FAVORITE PHOTO!!

Because my hair looks awesome. And I didn't smile so retardedly :)

And then Wanyu came and then after touching up, we went to meet LF and gang @ FC4.

I think I look nice in this one so another vertical photo allowed :)

And below are my favourite favourite photos:

The first photo is damn chio! Its like you can see my bottom eyelashes also (Y). And the 2nd photo looks like it has some effects or something. Though I don't think there's any. HAHA.

So yeah. That's all the photos I'm willing to share. The rest is pretty much after I'm drenched with sweat and my hair looks horribly flat -.-

And there's really a difference in my hair!! For comparison sake:

I know the photo on the left is super blurry because its cropped from a low quality photo.

BUT SEE THE LENGTH!! The left is taken only a few days before my hair cut. And its waaaay longer like at my stomach there. After hair cut (on the right) its only halfway over my boobs. Like 5 inches shorter?

Bottomline is: There is a difference! HAHA.

So now its kinda weird with nothing to do. Like I don't have to worry about sleeping early so that I can wake up the next day to report to work on time. Or like how much coins do I have to change the next day for my float. And whether Big J will be working or not. Blablabla. In fact I'm surprised to say that I am actually bored. I watched like 3 or 4 episodes of Privileged. Ate a whole lot of junk and I'm bored. Bored bored bored. I'm honestly not cut out for the working life. I'm only cut out for the schooling life I swear. I am really really hoping that my appeal works. Or else... I really don't know.

And did I mention? Pay has come and its a measly amount. Minus out all the expenses that I incurred (cuz I didn't receive any allowance OR ezlink money) its only like 200+ >.< I kind of regret blowing my first 2 weeks pay. Really. I have to wait for my next pay to see how much can I spare to spend.

Dance training + TRDO finals (supporting not taking part) tomorrow. Good luck to the girls. Yus, Gladys, Jiahui, Liern, Lum and Min. Amanda, Dorothy, Yanping and Angeline <3

Next step unknown

2011-06-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

I have not been blogging for so long already. Well, yesterday was my last day @ work so I can say that I'm pretty free now. Although honestly I'm so drained out from the last 2 days of full shift that I can barely drag myself out.

Looking back, I think I'm pretty blessed with every step that I took. Somehow, I will normally dread starting on something new knowing no one at all. But at the end of the period, I'll have friends and people that I'm comfortable with. Going into DEPM, I knew no one. And though I was sad that I didn't get in my first choice but it was okay cuz I have awesome classmates and my course is well...fun. And then I joined dance and at first I only had Yus but then I met all the awesome people who is still part of my life now and then all the awesome juniors, I wouldn't know how I would spend my 3 years if Yus hadn't managed to convince me to join dance.

Going into Year 2, had my ITP and I really thought I'll hate it to the core. But nope, I had fun. Had an eye candy. Awesome colleagues and I got really close to PHT (though we haven't met up since then other than the occasional hi byes during mass lectures. Which is not often :/). It made my ITP bearable and I really enjoyed it as well. Of course ITP wasn't the first work experience that I had. During my Metro days after my Os. I went in knowing no one as well. But along the way I made friends and people were surprised that we knew each other only then. And then coming to work in BHG. I came with W and thought that hey, I don't have to worry about having company BUT we were of different shifts and I don't even get to see her. And guess what, I was alone with no company. But I made friends and I'm thankful that I have Felin for company all the way.

So yes, I should be thankful that although things do not always go like I wanted (Eg: Getting in double science class which was my 2nd choice in Sec 3, getting into DEPM, also my 2nd choice) it always goes well in the end and when I look back I'll be like, hey its better this way actually. And I always meet awesome people along the way.

The point of this whole post is that I know that things do not always go as plan (in fact, never) for me but yet it always works out in the end and in fact its the best for me. So now what do I do for my future? What if after I appeal, the 3 universities still do not want to take me? What do I do? Its so depressing to have all your friends around you, on Twitter, on Facebook talking about unis and yet you're stuck here with nowhere to go cuz you only applied to 3 and its the hardest ones. My GPA is not awesome. Its average. Maybe a bit over average. But I guess the rest is all way better than me. I really hope once more, lady luck will be shining on me this time. Just one more time please.

I'll be posting about graduation next. Yes, I will :)

The head just won't stop

2011-05-11T22:59:00.001+08:00

Hello this is my 600th post :)

So yeah. Nothing much have changed since I last blogged. I'm working my ass off. Even taking up full shifts which is 10am - 10pm (weekdays) 9.30am - 10pm (weekends). Its no joke. So far, I got off the first out of the 3 full shifts that I'm scheduled for pretty unscathed. There's only one thing that is making me bear all this. And its money. And to think that I should have the right to do what I want with it. But oh no, spending 400+ is not necessary and I should be keeping the money. Like hello, I'm probably the most thrifty person in the house, other than my dad and like I was intending to blow off all of my hard earned money within one day. Seriously? I mean ok maybe blowing off $400+ for an iPod touch may be a bit too much but when else will I have the opportunity?! And I've been keeping track of my expenditure EVERY DAY to ensure that when I get my pay, I'll cover all of my expenses and will keep double that amount in my bank account. And I ALWAYS keep my word/promises. I don't know why is it so hard to believe. And yes, I'm planning on still giving some to my parents. So ya my reason for buying myself a treat is not justified?

Abrupt end of topic.

I skipped work the other day. Okay it was on Mother's Day, a Sunday. I was only having a mild headache and the part that my throat is all itchy and all is not a lie but I know I am still functioning properly and I could have gone to work. But nope, I decided to be sickly and went to the doctor to take an mc :) And that's when I discovered that my favourite doctor is no longer working at that clinic and its been 2 years since I last visited a doctor (Y). Oh and the fact that there are 5 types of migraines and my insistence all this while that my headache is just headache is so so wrong. The well known common story that its migraine only when its one side throbbing is a myth. Half myth. The throbbing pain from migraine is normally on one side of the head but it is not uncommon that you'll feel pressure on both sides. Plus there's the sick feeling and you'll feel the nausea. Which is so true in my case. But what's frightening is that if you're having migraines for more than 15 days in a month, it might be chronic migraine and medication is needed to control the migraines.

I should start counting the number of times I have migraines in a month??

And omg

Migraines are more common in people with depression, and depression is more common in people who have migraines. - http://www.bupa.co.uk/individuals/health-information/directory/m/migraine

Depression?! I am not depressed. I know I'm not. Just pessimistic and anti social and laptop addict but not depressed. Definitely not. I really feel like going to the doctor and asking them to prescribe exactly what the hell is wrong with my head :(

At times like this, I really do wish that my family is filthy rich and I'm able to afford going to the doctor every time. There's so many things I want to find out and so many things that is wrong with me. My rashes, my knee problem, the migraine problem, the crooked teeth, the not perfect eyesight. Oh I wish.

For now, I'm just trying to do what I normally do which is eat panadol (though the doctor say that panadol doesn't help with migraines AT ALL), eat a lot and sleep before 12. Urgh and tomorrow is another work day. I hope I'm at Counter 2 (atrium) or 7 (sundries) or 12 (menswear). Okay 4 (cosmetics) and 17 (toys) is not so bad as well. Just not 20 (bedding) or household. And I really hope for an eye candy at work. Its getting so boring. With not much motivation.

Anyway, enjoy the two songs below. Totally different from their conventional auto tune.

Totally awesome ♥

En route of independence

2011-05-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

Oh how I wish my hair is half as well behaved and pretty as her hair.

Referring to the title, that's what I hope I'll be doing. Even though working is such a tedious affair for someone so lazy like me, my motivation lies in me knowing that I'm earning everyday I drag myself out of bed. Which excludes today of course, because its my off day. After 7 consecutive days of working. And you'd think that I would at least have some peace and able to bask in the off day that I'm entitled to. But no way.

And for those who is reading this, you'll be first to know that I'm extending my stay in my workplace. Okay not the first. So far, like 3 people knows? But yeah, one of the first. For the simple reason that I have to start earning my keep and I'm sure that once the money comes rolling in I won't be full of complains anymore. For now because that hasn't happened yet, please forgive me for complaining everytime. Either verbally or on Twitter or even here. Can't blame me that I'm down with flu now. And tomorrow is another work day BUT Friday is another off day :) For now I pray that whoever is in charge would be more than happy to extend me and Felin's stay. Wouldn't that settle their lack of manpower problems?

Although I'm still trying to be enthusiastic, I'm not exactly that enthusiastic about work actually. Like hello who would when you'll miss:

1) Sleeping in until 1pm everyday

2) Watching a whole range of shows

3) Be in touch with Kpop news

4) Be in touch with whatever your friends are up to

5) Lazing around at home (which is kinda ironic that since I started working my mum has been forever nagging about chores everytime its my off when I don't even do it when I'm staying at home doing absolutely nothing)

6) SITTING!

7) Not having to bother about what others think of you

8) Not worrying whether you'll have a lunch buddy everyday

9) Not worrying whether you balance your sales at the end of the day

10) Not fretting over seeing Big J everyday

Oh yeah I have not blogged about Big J. She's not as monstrous as I thought she would be. But she's very nit picky about practically everything. And I think I might have made an entry into her book of blacklisted people (cuz I was short $12 yesterday. Which I am absolutely sure is in my float. Which is also not entirely my fault cuz I get so easily distracted when people are watching me so how do you expect me to count comfortably when there's a new trainee watching ME?!). I just can't seem to please her. Whenever she make her rounds in the store, I'm always doing something that I'm not supposed to do or my counter is not how it is supposed to be (Which is also not entirely my fault as well cuz how am I supposed to know where to put all the stuffs when I'm at different counters everyday and different counters = different orientation of items? Plus who could blame me when I'm trying to organise my coins since I changed ALL of them in the morning and I have no idea that plastic bags is such a crucial part to a counter?!). Seriously other than that, apparently she's fine. But she have never been exceptionally nice to me. Though she has been to F and W. Which I think is extremely unfair. Maybe she's racist. Hmm.

So what did I do today? Woke up at 2pm (though I woke up first at 10am then 12pm then 1pm and went back to sleep on all 3 occasions), ate some garbage food (Lays, custard puff & leftover Chewy Juniors), bathe, ate lunch, cleared my emails, backtracking on tweets and Kpop news (since I didn't turned on my laptop for 2 days), watched performances videos, bring the laundry in cuz it was raining and everyone else is either out or sleeping, ate some more snacks (Milo and bread with Nutella), transferred a whole bunch of songs and pictures to yet-another-new-phone of my mum's (this irritates the hell out of me), watched Oh My School, Tumblring to find a picture for this post and of course blogging. Yes, a whole lot of garbage stuffs if you ask me. But that's what off day is all about what. A break. A break, doing anything you want.

I'm very sorry for this rambling post.

I'm kinda getting worried and worked up that there's no acceptance letter. Am I that lousy and unworthy to go to any university. Okay maybe its my fault to be so overly confident and only applying to the Big 3 but I want to be somewhere better than my sister which means that SIM is out and I think that's why I didn't apply for SIT. FML.

By the way, is this sold in Singapore??!?!

An upgraded version of Yan Yan. I WANT!

Oh and one last thing to add. The General Elections is driving me nuts. Its like infesting the news EVERYDAY. And its mainly about the same stuffs about what this party is going to do to improve their area if they get elected. PLUS some of them have really bad English. Its not that I'm uninterested in the current affairs (Okay I'm not actually) or the wellbeing of the country (ditto) but like give us a break? Just make your stand and let nature takes its course. Or the voters make their mind without all the propaganda and promises (which may be empty ones for all I know). Maybe its the fact that I am not eligible for the vote so yeah my opinions doesn't really matter. Or maybe I'm still bitter that I'm 5 months short of getting that $600.

Okay bye.

Not wasting time

2011-04-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hey ho. A short update :)

Currently working at BHG. Not gonna say which outlet. HEH. And back to doing cashiering again. Reminds me of Metro days. However, its tougher and way more complicated. There's a test and you have to pass 75% before you can open your own counter. BUT of course the awesome me, managed to learn theory and practical (yes there's this part) within one day and the next day just 1h of refresh and test. And I scored 96% :) So yeah I can open my own counter tomorrow apparently. Extremely nervous cuz even though today's my 4th day, I have yet to meet the Big J and plus I have to handle my own counter. Its like a whole new beginning. But anyway, its all good. I get to know a lot of Philippines people (who have 1 year attachment here. ONE YEAR WTF), the other staffs are pretty nice (other than the Big J apparently) and I have made like 3 new friends :)

So yeah, at least for the next 2+ weeks I'll be doing something productive :) Even though I miss my no-life-watch-dramas-and-use-laptop-all-day days, its for only 20 days, I'll survive.

1st thing to do after I get my pay: Buy myself an iPod touch. Yes, I will.

Dinner dates just got better

2011-04-12T19:56:00.001+08:00

Heyyy I'm back again. I blogged yesterday by the way. About the Modern Graduation Party. I'm bored today so I decided to blog again.

Me, Sab, Weilin and Yanping met up for an Udders date on the 8th. This is only the 2nd time that I ate there. Even the previous time I ate it, it was with the same people plus Yus. HAHAHA. Even so I think I ate the same thing again. I'm such a boring person I know. We were all late meeting at 7pm. HAHA. Met Weilin on the way to Khatib and YanPing alighted her train so that she can board with us at Yio Chu Kang. In the end, we (okay fine, they said it was me talking) were busy talking that we missed the stop to Newton. It happens all the time to me. Bad luck to people taking the train with me. They must possess that iota of strength to ignore me :)

And yes, I traveled all the way to Newton for this:

HEHE. This is not mine. Sab's probably. Or Yanping's. I ate Choc Marsh. And the 3 of them had iphones. So I'm the only non iPhone user among them. While they are busy tweeting away and taking pictures on the spot I could only just tweet in words :( But honestly, I don't think I should even own an iPhone. I'm the kind who gets addicted to stuffs a tad too easily and I don't have the self discipline to stop at all. Imagine with all the apps and games and what not? I'll be more anti social than I already am :/

So Sab was experimenting with some app that creates photos with effects. Quite pretty actually. As in the photos not me. HAHAHAHA. I was lazy mode that day. No contacts, no hair let down and no layers in my clothes :/

This one is actually 4 shot after another. But as you can see I fail in taking different face shots one after another. Plus I think Sab failed in her counting to cue me to change expressions as well >.<

But it didn't look that bad right! HEHE. *Other than the top far left photo >.<

And then we went to eat at Texas Chicken. Since we were all not full yet. The chicken there is not bad actually. I only ate the spicy ones before. And the flavour goes in the chicken as well and not only in the skin. Just that I hate the chili sauce. It has that weird taste.

We rushed to Ion after that to get Amanda's present! HEHE. Hope she likes what we bought for her :)

Some other photos:

And....

Love them a lot a lot :) Rest of the photos here.

Been compiling the photos with awesome fonts which I downloaded from here. Its super addictive that I downloaded 20+ fonts within 10 minutes today. Although I don't know when else I will use them but I guess I will fully utilize them in my blog photos :)

Been reading eBooks this past few days. Currently reading The Princess Diaries series. HAHA. IKR so Primary School. That was because I cannot find #8 of Sealed with a Diss from The Clique series by Lisi Harrison :( Mr. Google have failed me for the first time. Its very easy actually. Just download epub files and read Adobe Digital Editions :) Super awesome.

Anyway I'm currently addicted to this:

I have never been a fan of Rainbow. But this song not bad right! Its so addictive.

Okay that's all for now. By the way there's The Little Nyonya dubbed in Malay on Suria now. Its sounds so weird and I have forgotten how annoying the story is. Like I want to kill all the evil people seriously. LOL.

- Off to read Princess in Love now -

Its Retro, baby

2011-04-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

Long due but better late than never :)

The juniors had a Graduation Party for us on 26th March. To celebrate the graduation of these people:

There were more actually. But these are the ones that turn up for the party HEH.

The theme was retro and so was the dress code obviously. Just like D&D, I didn't bother to go out shopping. My wardrobe amazes me sometimes. Top is bought like 3 years ago when I was still working at Metro so obviously its from Metro, red stockings from G Market (damn cheap. Less than $10), bag is from Hari Raya (and the same one from D&D) and I was wearing my Mondo shoes (can't be seen here). Accessories is also not new. I had a checkered barrette on my hair, purple earrings bought during Waves 13 time and a cloth thingy which I tied as bracelet is my sister's. Considering that I didn't shop and only planned the outfit that day itself, I'm satisfied with it. And I was one of them who got votes for Best Dressed. HAHAHAH. Obviously Jiahui won. The green dress is already retro without a doubt :)

And I really had lots of fun that day. If only more people turned up it would have been more awesome. But I really appreciate the efforts that the juniors take in planning for this. Despite them being busy with ITP and all :) Really love them a lot a lot <3

Well, what's a blog post without pictures right?

Pictures of the 7 of us + Cherie (who graduated last year and is sad over the fact that we never did any party for her. HEH.)

Group photos with all those who came.

And vertical photos combined!

There are obviously more photos but all on Facebook :) Played games, there were performances and of course lots of food as well! (oh damn I'm craving for Ruffles now :/) And as usual, I always have a favourite photo of the day. And this is it:

HEHE seems like I like photos with Auntie in it :)

Alrighty. Just a short post for now. I was going to blog about Rockmelt but then I found out that they'll be auto updating people for Beta 2 so I shall do my review after that!

Still waiting for universities acceptance. Still jobless. You know, its actually not bad. Just the penniless part :(

The journey thus far

2011-04-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

Normally watching dance concerts does not really evoke much emotions in me. But watching the recent TPDE Gems 6 concert, it makes me think of Waves. Maybe cuz it happened like only 2 months ago, maybe cuz both Ryan and An an was on stage so there's a sense of familiarity. I don't know.

Waves 15 was really meaningful to me. It is my last Waves as a student of SP. And it was the only Waves that I suffered and actually dreaded going to trainings because of my injury.

After the concert on Friday, I was thinking of Waves so much that I watched the videos Sab posted for Waves :)

My journey from the Waves 13 to 15 :)

Waves 13:

Slow Me Down choreographed by Ryan

This was all the modern dancers at that point of time. Really a lot.

You And Me choreographed by Bin

Oh memories :)

Disturbia Finale!

How I wish finales are all mass dance. This was so much fun.

Waves 14:

Where there was a major storyline and I was part of the committee.

The Seductresses (Street Jazz) choreographed by Shina and Bryan

Oh my this was fun and taxing and stressful all at once. But I don't regret going for the auditions. And what makes it awesome is that all the moderners who went for the auditions for this item got chosen. Pearl, Cherie, Sab and me :)

The Masquerade (Modern + Bboys collaborate) choreograped by Pearl and Zul

Dancing in heels >.< But it was neater that I thought actually!

The Capricious Dolls (Wacking + Modern) choreographed by Xiang Yi and Cherie

Had to pose damn long during the Wacking portion >.< HAHA.

Final Medley + Curtain Call

Waves 15:

Stella's Item

Gladys' Item

Curtain Call

So there. I think I started getting lazy at the end of my Year 2. Which is very bad. I still have my lazy bones now :/ Which sucks.

Today is just another Sunday.

And its your birthday :)

The only thing(s) I hate

2011-03-31T23:34:00.001+08:00

So. As I have been at home most of the time and is faced constantly with all the things I hate, I decided to do a Hate List. I think it will probably be a lot and I have a nagging feeling that I have done this before. But oh wells, as my memory serves me, here goes.

Nadiah's Hate List: (Okay, dislike?)
1) When I'm peacefully sleeping and someone just barge in the room, talking very loudly, waking me up.
2) When I was just going to fall asleep and someone just have to bounce on the bed.
3) When I'm trying to sleep and everyone else is being plain annoying.
4) When someone sleeps on my side of the bed.
5) People who use my laptop. My laptop is mine. I'm overly protective over it.
6) People who draws on my stuffs. Who hides my stuff. Who... disturbs my stuffs.
7) Having to look after the laundry in case it rains when my mum is not home.
8) Taking out the laundry when my mum is not home.
9) When my mum experiments with funny funny dishes she discovered from her recipe book.
10) The fucking hot weather.
11) Sweating.
12) Bus full of stinky, Secondary School kids coming home after school (I don't remember being THAT stinky).
13) Those people who insists on not taking the window seat.
14) Those aunties who tap right after they board the bus at the exit and then hogging the line when they're alighting cuz they don't understand 'Exit ok' (I forgot what its written la.)
15) Couples who insist to hang on to each other in the mrt/bus. And in the end both lose balance -.-
16) Iphones everywhere.
17) People staring at those who sit on the Priority Seat and is neither disabled/pregnant or with a child. I'll give up my seat when the abovementioned is present for god's sake.
18) Waiting. I seriously hate waiting. Yes, selfish cuz I always make people wait :/
19) Running.
20) Vegetables.
21) Pink.
22) Losing hair when I'm bathing.
23) People who don't bathe in the morning (I know a few >.<)
24) Waking me up before my alarm rings. Even if its just 5 minutes before.
25) Shopping.
26) Mats.
27) Waking me up before 1pm when there's nothing on for that day.
28) Sleeping before 12am.
29) Heels.
30) Totes with short straps.
31) Long nails.
32) Feeling sleepy.
33) Fat fingers.
34) Brochures for Army Open House.
35) Being alone.
36) Hair being nicer at home than outside.
37) Dressing up.
38) Burger King, Pastamania, Pizza Hut.
39) People updating their Facebook status every few minutes. Get Twitter for god's sake -.-
40) Those shameless people on Tumblr asking to be promoted.
41) Those shameless people on Twitter following random people and asking for followbacks.
42) Going out.
43) Not getting allowance.
44) People messing up the room after I clean it.
45) Clogged pipes.
46) People looking at my laptop when I'm using it.
47) Headaches.
48) Rashes.
49) Internet Explorer.
50) Fitting clothes.

I think I can pretty much go on. But. I shall stop here for now :) I shall do a love list soon shall I?

Anyway, went to back to SP today to just hangout with Yus and Sab. Enjoyable time indeed. My ideal type of hanging out. Just find a place to sit and talk :)

Tomorrow will be lunch @FC3 with W and D. Yes, back in school again. And then TPDE concert at night.

Wanted to blog about the Retro graduation party but am kind of lazy. So this is a sneak before I blog properly about it :)

Oh and my 10 days of using Rockmelt is up. And its pretty awesome so I've got to share awesome stuffs as well. Proper post soon. But here's the official video :)

I'll blog about it soon, soon, soon :)

And yes, my Diploma is awarded. Will officially graduate on the 26th May. Very happy with the Sem's GPA (4As, 3B+s) BUT stupid cumulative just wouldn't go up :( Now waiting for acceptance letter. I'll be immensely happy just to get one. PLEASE.

The peak and the celebration

2011-03-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

Okay so I digressed and have not been updating. Blame it on my lazy self who hasn't been going out and doing anything productive and extremely lazy to filter out photos to upload.

As promised, this post is on ABE Annual Dinner & Dance held on 11th March 2011. HAHA 10 days ago. Not so bad la eh? :) Its my first time attending this kind of thing. Not that the event is immensely fun but I guess this kind of thing depends on the company, no? Since I had great company = fun indeed.

For that day I wore stuffs from home. Nothing new at all. The black dress is from Topshop and its my mum's, the gold cardigan is my sister's (don't know from where) and the black heels is from Waves 14 performance. My bag is the one I bought for Hari Raya so I can't remember from where either. Bracelets are my sister's as well and necklace is the one that I wear everyday. Since its an extremely last minute decision, I guess I'm happy enough. The stuffs in my home amazes me sometimes.

Time for pictures :) (Of course its only those that I like. The rest is on Facebook!)

With Wanyu, Baoling, Jane and Huiting. Super hate portrait photos in my blog so that's why these are made into a collage! :)

FYP Group Members, Lingfeng and Wanyu! Oh those times >.<

Joan and Wanyu :)

Clique + Fadli in the center.

With Wanyu and Debbie :)

And more Clique photos! :)

They had this backdrop thingy where we can take photos and we can get the printed copies.

But I have 2 of those photos and I don't know what to do with them. The era where photos are kept in photo albums is way over :/

With our lecturer, Alvena Sam (far right). This is only like part of the class. HAHA.

And I like this one but apparently Fadli is blocked.

So we took another one! :)

In the ballroom itself. Again, not all of the class. Shermaine's dress is really damn chio. She won Miss ABE by the way! Totally awesome (Y)

And this is after the whole thing ended. Again with Alvena Sam and the 2 who brought their boyfriends :)

And below are my favourite photos from the day :)

Major reason is because of the effects HAHA.

Hair didn't behave itself totally. And once I got home, it got really very nice. Like what the hell I know. But oh well.

Tomorrow is results day. And thinking about it makes me extremely nervous to the max. I have to sustain my GPA. I cannot afford to get any Cs at all. Grand total of grades is already 5 As, 23 Bs and 6 Cs. Cannot afford to get any Cs plus I don't even have a distinction la >.< Really hoping like mad.

Anyway, I'm currently using Rockmelt! Its pretty awesome though there's plenty of stuffs that I would like them to change. HAHA. But pretty much I'm happy with it. Like 70%. Once they can allow me to change my theme, make Chrome apps work seamlessly, controlling desktop notifications for feeds and enabling me to see DMs on Twitter, I'll uninstall my Chrome forever. Flock is kind of ugly so its nothing compared to Rockmelt :) After a week of using Rockmelt I blog all about it. Today is D-4 :)

Pretty much sound like a geek everytime I talk about computer stuffs. Recently figured out how to play SRT sub files with WMP plus playing all kind of video formats with WMP. Because of that I've totally uninstalled my VLC Media Player. Too many players already. I also have Real Player for me to download videos >.<. Mr Google is my best friend :)

These days my schedule is just dance and dramas. I should double up my efforts to find a job but its so hard to find those that is totally flexible, pay's good and preferably in the tourism/events section :/ Last resort would be the admin, data entry work.

Sigh.

Farewell fellow comrades

2011-03-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

This post is all about my 3 years in Poly life. I do realise that I rarely blog about my classmates. I guess in school, I spend more time with my dance friends rather than my classmates.

Well, throughout my Diploma years there are many changes in the friends I hung out with. As usual, when it was Year 1, everyone hangs around together and the group I usually hang around with is like super big with like 6-9 people? And then came Year 2, when the group lessens to 5. And then when one switched classes it came down to the four of us, D, W, Q and me. Q was my 2nd friend in Poly. And D comes after. W came last. But I started hanging out with both Q and W way before D joined us. I guess we all have our different characters and personality and there are times that I want to strangle them but well, they're my friends and I guess I learnt to accept them the way they are :)

But as a whole, I know that the class bonded more when we were in Year 3. And there's less of that awkward moment when you don't want to go class first before your clique comes. Though we were not as close as other classes but we had our laughs in our own way :)

We had a class BBQ some time ago. Yes, its super belated. But oh well. It was held at Cassie's place. And I had lots of crab stick! (Y)

The class people who came! Not all turned up la.

And the class took pictures on our last day of school. I suddenly got the feeling that we suddenly became bonded. Even ate lunch together! LOL. But its all good :)

Prom post next! :)

True enough, I'm aching all over >.< But pain is good :)

Like the way it used to be

2011-03-13T02:37:00.000+08:00

Been blogging pretty often eh at the wee hours of the morning.

Looked through my Facebook and I realised that there's alot of photos that I want to blog about. Of course there's still the long time promised Waves 15 which I don't think I'll blog about anymore since its like what? 2 months ago? HAHA. But anyway, I'll put in some photos here and there :)

I will blog about D&D and the last days of my Poly school life soon.

But anyway today is dance day. And I will confirm have muscle aches today. Like seriously. Stretched after like sooooo long. Damn stiff and pain everywhere >.< But it was pretty slack cuz there's not much people plus no new choreo to learn. But yeah the techniques :'O I will look forward to more of it. My only form of exercise :)

Dear Wing is in US now. Somehow some things always makes me think of her. Like when I'm drinking Milo, or when I'm taking 901 and when I'm listening to FT Island song which is titled, Wing. HAHA. If you're reading this, I hope you're doing well! Have lots of fun but work hard as well. I'll look forward to an angmoh Wing in 6 months time <3 HEHE.

And this was when we surprised her after we had dinner at Secret Recipe:

Talking about Secret Recipe, I was damn retarded just now. Had this conversation with Sab after I bought my KFC lunch. Sab was just saying to someone something like, 'Oh she really go buy Subway arh.'
Me: Did I owe you any money from that time we ate at Subway?
Sab: Subway?
Me: Eh no, Secret Garden.

LOL. Its supposed to be Secret Recipe by the way. I'm still laughing everytime I thought about it. HAHA.

Alrighty, time to head to bed. Good night! :)

Pretty dresses and made up faces

2011-03-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

Just got back from D&D :) Its enjoyable in a way I guess. But sucks that the class won the most prizes in the lucky draw (6 to be exact) but not the grand prize >.< Oh well.

Tomorrow/later will be dance day :) I have to take this day to stretch and stretch and stretch. I will not be lazy yeah. HEHE and looking forward to seeing all my people as well!

Cabbed home, took out lens, removed makeup and instantly I look so sleepy. HAHA.

Back to contemplating. What should I do to my hair. Imagine a drastic change. Nadiah with short red hair?

Alrighty will post up pictures soon :)

I wish upon a star

2011-03-11T02:32:00.001+08:00

So I'm finally done with all the dramas I want to watch. I watched three straight Korean dramas and am currently thinking what else to watch. Secret Garden then Playful Kiss then Boys Over Flowers. What's next? After watching all the dramas, it makes me think like the main characters' life before is like super bored. Like before Kim Joo Won mistook Gil Ra Im for another person. Like before Oh Ha Ni wrote a love letter to Baek Seung Jo (seriously after 3 years?! And this show makes the girl look so stupid and desperate >.<). Like before Geum Jan Di met Goo Joon Pyo. So life gets more fun yet it gets harder once you meet that certain someone eh? In real life, it will probably just end in like, a month? If the guy is like that and the girl is like that. That's why I never can understand how I can immerse myself so much in the dramas I'm watching when I know how ridiculous and unrealistic it is. By the way, I actually googled the characters names cuz I have forgotten them already HAHA.

Well, that's all that I have to do actually. It feels really weird not having to think about like which assignments is due and such.

Tomorrow - no, today is my D&D. Decided what to wear today. Didn't go shopping or whatever. Just wearing whatever is at home. Probably compared to the rest will look super understated? But well, I guess I'd rather be like that. It surprises me on how anti-social I can be. Bailing out on outings, cancelling meetups, not going for family gathering, not going for whoever's wedding. I kind of like it this way actually. Gives me a peace of mind cuz all I have to think about is me, myself and I :)

Really kind of disappointing that I have not been called down for any job interviews yet despite all the resumes that I've sent. Was looking forward to working my ass off and going on the road to self improvement. Well, I guess its time to start finding and not just waiting now :/ Which I absolutely hate.

Am now listening to SS501. After watching BOF, I just think that KHJ is damn cool. Used to like him but not so much afterwards but now... hmm. He have a really very pretty face LOL. But overall he's still pretty cool. So gonna rewatch WGM with him and HwangBo. The best couple ever. HAHA.

Anyway, came across this song on Tumblr and I must say I'm starting to really like it. Downloaded her album and its really not bad!

Reminds me of Diana Vickers.

Okay that's all for now. I'm hoping that today goes well and I will look awesome. Its my first ever prom so I hope that I'll enjoy it :) - Off to rewatch WGM -

PS: I think there's like mosquitoes or some insect at the dining table seat that I'm sitting. Getting bites all over >.<

Infinite episodes, complex characters

2011-03-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

I'm kind of bored already. School is over, holidays is here and its not just a holiday its the graduation holiday (means no more poly la I don't know how else to put it). Went out, watched Secret Garden and Playful Kiss. And I'm bored.

I need to desperately find a job. Those really flexible hours yet earn quite alot. HAHA. Which is kind of hard. And I do want like those that is related to the tourism section or whatever. And yeah I'm not the kind who will really go out and find a job. I'd rather send in resume and wait for them to call me that sort of thing. Cuz I have this phobia of talking to people or calling people first. Like not in a friendly environment that sort of thing. HAHA. Makes sense? Neh mind. Point is: The route to self funding is pretty hard when you're not as independent as everyone thinks you are >.<

Oh and did I mention, I want dance to start again. I'm so getting fat with all the sitting around and watching 10h of videos straight. Yes I did that. HAHAHAH.

One thing I have to say though, I hate staying at home nowadays. Just like the title of this post. My house is like a drama with infinite episodes and complex characters. The episodes will forever go on and it will definitely be longer than Days of our Lives. So I ranted about my sister here. But that's not all. The rest of the four in my house all have their different ways to make me annoyed.

And another thing. I just remembered my D&D is this week. FML I don't have glamorous clothes + money to buy at all. Maybe I should cash out my Nuffnang earnings :/ How now brown cow. I didn't go for my Secondary School prom cuz I was working so yeah, this is my first time and its sort of a big deal isn't it? Or maybe I should just bail? HAHAHHAHA. Though I will still have to pay D back. And its not a small sum.

I really do envy people who don't have to worry about money issues and is able to go anywhere they want, do anything they want. And they don't know how fucking lucky they are.

Today is one of those days.

The scent of freedom

2011-03-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

Current obsession: Waffles (Y)

Oh yes, graduation, freedom is here :) Ended my paper yesterday. It was, okay. Went for lunch @Manhattan Fish with Sab and bought wallet and studs from Fourskin and more studs from Diva. There's so many that I don't know which one to put in which hole >.<

Well now that I'm done and no more exams to stop me from thinking, I guess its time to get on with my plan. Somehow there's so many job offers. But today, I think I'm going to relax. Yes I will. I don't care. Though I have yet to settle my university applications.

I really hope that I can save up enough for the trip. Yes I do.

Kthxbye.

Recollections of the past

2011-02-26T17:30:00.001+08:00

(OMG POLLY POCKET!)

When I was young, I desperately want to grow up and start earning money so that I'm able to buy whatever I want. But now, I don't want to grow up. Its frightening just thinking of how much I have to rely only on myself because I cannot depend on others anymore. I'll be turning 20 this year and though it might not be an old age, heck its not even 21 its still the start of 20s! I'm going to end my teenage years :(

I'll miss the privileges of being a student/teenager. Seriously, there's so much benefits. Go everywhere also free. Or half price. I cannot imagine having to pay the train and bus fare without concessions man. I think half of my pay/allowance will go towards paying the transportation fare.

As I have very poor memory, I don't really remember my childhood days actually. I just remember that I never had barbie (cuz my mum believes that it will haunt you at night), I never had toys (I don't know why) and I only played 'cooking' with my elder sis under the dining table. And I do remember studying. Freaking out cuz I got 89 and not 98. Getting 100 for all the exams and crying when I get 98 and of course my dad forcing me to learn the timetable. Only the 2x2, 3x3, 4x4 all the way to 10x10. Is there a name for this? So anyway, my dad would test me and he even timed me with the hour glass. I think it was a 3minute one.

Oh and omg I enjoy pulling out my teeth! The immense pleasure when the teeth came out after I pull it out. Even dentist visits are free la! And yes, I enjoy going to the dentist. Especially usually there's not much other than the usual talk about getting braces and polishing. After my visit to the dentist, I'll be smiling all day long. After polish leh!

But I guess one memory that will forever be etched in my mind is having crushes. My first crush was in Primary Four. I mean like serious crush until got talk on phone and text that kind. OMG I remember there was one kid in Primary one who always give me coloured staples. HAHAHAHAH! And he's my partner and he everytime very excited to hold my hand will swing here swing there. HEHE. He's a Chinese kid btw. I forgot how he looked like already >.<

So yes. My first crush. Is a Chinese. Come to think of it my crushes are all like 95% chinese? (Y) He has super deep dimples and everyone likes him as well. We talked on the phone like damn long. That time Primary Four don't have handphone yet! HAHA. I don't know whether he remembered. Then there was another guy during Primary Six. Again everyone likes him. And he's Chinese Malaysian, so he took Malay and he sat in front of me and will everyday ask me questions LOL. And obviously I got my first handphone and we texted a lot!

OMG now that it has come to this. I have to tell the most memorable story ever!

There's this one time during a 'prepare for PSLE camp' I was in the same group with my first crush (let's call him N) and my current crush (let's call him J). J was not in the same class as me. N was. So anyway, the teacher called out our names and he/she called me, J and N's names first. There were 5 people in the group. And it was a round table where we have to sit. So J and N sat comfortably side by side (they knew each other HAHA). And I came in and had no idea whether to sit next to J or next to N so guess what, I sat at the seat in between which is beside neither. Smart right! HAHA. The two other girls sat at the other two seats. So we did normal work like Math and stuffs I think? Like got discussions all that. Don't remember. Anyway, not the point of the story.

So N, was asking J, 'Eh we should exchange phone numbers'. So J rambled of his number, '9xxxxxxx' and he looked and me and asked, 'Right?' Note at this point of time, we were still on texting terms and though awkward when we meet we had a - connection? HAHAHHA. And he was always the one who talk to me in real life. HAHA. I'm shy you know. So yeah anyway when J said that, I was like 'Eh? Erm, I think so.' And just shrugged when obviously I memorised his number LOL. N looked kind of surprised, looked at us both and said, 'What, you all contacting each other arh?' And J said, 'Ya, cannot arh?' I think I was not in my right mind by then so I can't remember what else happened. Come to think of it, I cannot remember what the other 2 girls are doing. LOL. Like audience watching drama -___- There were games being played on field too and there were interactions between me and J (which is too weird to describe in words).

BUT graduation came. And we went our separate ways. I was still in contact with N and J for a period of time. After a while, I don't really contact J and I contacted N a couple of times to wish him for his birthday and he invited me to support him for his competition. Which I didn't stay till the end cuz it was kind of late. But oh well. So now. I think J is overseas? And from what I know he's attached. He's 2 years older btw. As for N, I'm still in contact with him. He's in NS now? And omfg I hope he don't read this >.<

Anyway the point is, I don't want to grow up. I guess when I was young, I was more reckless and don't really care about what will happen after cuz I know I don't really have to take the full consequence. But for now, I guess every step I take, I have to think like 3675274 times. Its really so much easier when you're a kid and you don't have to worry about anything at all. Don't have to worry about what other people will think. I really miss that.

I guess its kind of stupid to think like this. Life has to go on and it cannot stand still forever isn't it? If everyone's gonna stay the age they want to be, what will the world be?

I have to start thinking wisely and be more mature in the way I act and the way I talk. Hello, I'm going to be 20 in a few months time hey ho. >.<

Boredom got the better of me

2011-02-25T02:30:00.000+08:00

What a random time to blog now. But I'm currently waiting for Heroes (a Korean variety show not that draggy English series) to be downloaded. It says 484/723 MB, 32mins left. So it would be such a waste to go to bed without waiting for it to finish. I don't usually download the show. I just watched it from the video streaming links. I watched like 3 or 4 episodes today? And its pretty good. Damn funny. The laughter it brought me is totally like watching Family Outing.

Oh yes, I still have exams. But no I haven't start yet. Just wrote a bit of stuffs from the lecture slides onto the lecture notes for Special Events. HAHA.

So yes, I got bored and my hair is so chio tonight that I decided to cameroid again. I'm using 'cameroid' as a verb cuz I have no idea what to call it.

Last picture with no effects. And I look damn sleepy. This was taken 5 minutes ago btw and trust me I can barely open my eyes now. 25 mins left >.< I think my dad caught me while I was taking these photos. Damn embarrassing.

You know, I really have to find my own motivation to go out on my own seriously. My butt is expanding in size because I'm just sitting and using my laptop all day long. And no form of exercise (cuz my exercise = dance) Yes, I have no life tyvm. My life now, when I'm not studying that is, revolves around shows and more shows. Heroes, Oh My School, Pretty Little Liars. What else. Yeah that's it.

Btw, I came across this tumblr: http://ohiwantthatroom.tumblr.com and omfg the pictures of rooms they post up is simply (Y). I always have this fantasy dream house which is damn huge that there's no way it will ever become a reality LOL. I even have drawings on how I want the rooms to be! So anyway check this one out:

Like seriously?! No I don't like the colour. I absolutely hate the colour. The structure is damn cool! Imagine if its like a more darker shade it will be more awesome! But actually, I would rather the bed on the floor kind like this:

I don't know why. The other kind of bed, the common one is not my cup of tea. And look at this its circle! Where got people use circle bed you tell me?! Apart from the too many pillows and the classy looking pillow cases (seriously) and the side table - oh wait that's everything else apart from the bed. Okay la I only like the bed. And is this by Fendi!? Got the FF logo thingy at the side.

I'm totally like talking to myself now. 12 more minutes. Faster faster.

Anyway, this is so true for me:

Okay fine, I don't even know whether I tried like studying way before paper ever in my life. I've always been the last minute studying kind. And yeah, I'm not saying that I score major well but its kind of good actually. I'm hoping that it will work again this time round. Come on, last time in Poly already must make it work la.

Which reminds me, I have yet to submit my NTU applications. And SIT and SMU. Damn. I'm so lazy seriously. Why can't they just make it as simple as NUS. I would have settled all by last week if its like NUS >.< My mum is positive that I'll get into NUS and I didn't bother to break it to her that I'm just 3-ish and others who get into NUS is with 3.8 and above? Oh well.

Omg 7mins.

If you have read until this line, thank you very much <3 I'm totally rambling.

Kthxbye. (3 more minutes lalalala)

Right where reality doesn't matter

2011-02-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hey ho. I must be damn bored to be blogging so often nowadays HAHA. And I just remembered I have not yet blogged about Waves 15. A bit too late already? Or should I still blog about it. I bet I will confirm get all sentimental again. Oh whatever. I'll think about it later HAHA.

So I've been reading some books lately. I'm a real bookworm actually and really like to read. I want to be those intellectual kind of reader that reads like really deep or based on true life story kind of books or even like those classics and all. But I guess I'm never the kind who is into Literature and stuffs. Although I did quite okay in my lower secondary Literature and they don't have Pure Literature in Upper Secondary so yeah. HAHA. I have Great Expectations by Charles Dickens and Emma by Jane Austen but I have yet to finish either >.< So yeah in Secondary School it was mainly romance and those no brainer happy happy kind of story stuffs. But later on, I got interested into thrillers (Russell Andrews and Cody McFadyen FTW).

So recently, I decided on not reading thrillers cuz once I start, I cannot stop and will be damn hooked and I will get kind of paranoid at night. You know like thinking there's like a serial killer in the house and will slowly come and get my family that sort of thing >.< So yeah anyway, since I have not been going out and thus no pretty picture to post (of myself obviously) I shall do like a book review kind of thing.

The 2 books that I read in the last week. Borrowed from school. Woodlands Library suck now. Seriously. Majorly pissed off when I went there just now. I think I'm going to miss the school library. Probably cuz like no one in SP reads books thus the forever available books. Hello, reading is good ok. All those people who is able to borrow from school do it do it! TSK. (okay why am I getting pissed). So yeah:

1st book: The Secret Dreamworld of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella
*Wanted to include a picture of the cover but Mr. Google gives me too small images >.<

Synopsis:

Meet Rebecca Bloomwood.

She’s a journalist. She spends her working life telling others how to manage their money.
She spends her leisure time … shopping.

Retail therapy is the answer to all her problems. She knows she should stop, but she can’t. She tries Cutting Back, she tries Making More Money. But neither seems to work. The stories she concocts become more and more fantastic as she tries to untangle her increasingly dire financial difficulties. Her only comfort is to buy herself something – just a little something…

Can Becky ever escape from this dream world, find true love, and regain the use of her Switch card?

The Secret Dreamworld of a Shopaholic… the perfect pick me up for when it’s all hanging in the (bank) balance. - http://www.sophiekinsella.co.uk

The book is pretty good. And those shopohalics will be able to relate to it quite well. HAHA. And I watched the movie (Confessions of a Shopaholic) which was a mixture of all the shopaholic series after that. It is those kind of books that are enjoyable to read but you won't exactly be hooked that sort of thing? HEHE ideal for bedtime reading!

2nd book: Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella

Synopsis:

Lexi wakes up in a hospital bed after a car accident, thinking it’s 2004 and she’s a twenty-five-year old with crooked teeth and a disastrous love life.But, to her disbelief, she learns it’s actually 2007 – she’s twenty-eight, her teeth are straight, she’s the boss of her department – and she’s married! To a good-looking millionaire! How on earth did she land the dream life??!

She can’t believe her luck – especially when she sees her stunning new home. She’s sure she’ll have a fantastic marriage once she gets to know her husband again. He’s drawn up a ‘manual of our marriage’, which should help.

But as she learns more about her new self, chinks start to appear in the perfect life. All her old colleagues hate her. A rival is after her job. Then a dishevelled, sexy guy turns up… and lands a new bombshell.

What the **** happened to her? Will she ever remember? And what will happen if she does? - http://www.sophiekinsella.co.uk

This story is really endearing but unrealistic. HAHA but when I'm reading it, obviously I read it before I go to bed, I'll be like fantasising if it happens to me >.< But overall it is a pretty good book as well!

I guess Sophie Kinsella books are mainly like this so its pretty much the same kind. Those girly story kind (Y).

So today, after I went to collect my passport (come on, bring me overseas now!) I decided to pay a visit to the Civic Centre libary. Its probably been like 2675466 years since I last went. And I seriously don't know what happened to all the books!! So I went to find Sophie Kinsella and there's only one there. Then I went to Carole Matthews and still there was only one only! And same for Russell Andrews and Cody McFadyen. Like wtf. Ok fine I'm making a big fuss again. But anyway, I was choosing a few books but realised that I shouldn't be so over ambitious about borrowing four and just borrowed a book by Holly Peterson titled The Manny. Not a thriller. HAHA. And I have never read from this author before so I don't know how good the book will be! Looking forward to reading it soon :)

I really think my English is degrading alot. My Malay is confirm like really horrible already. So this is my attempt to try to improve my English >.<

Alrighty, that's all for now. I'm having fun having conversations on Twitter. Totally like MSN. Only that its made public HAHA.

Trap in the world of soliloquy

2011-02-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

Done with Event Budgeting and Control paper. So that's 3 down, 2 more to go. And since the next paper is next Monday, it is 6 days of self declare break (Y).

Okay I have nothing much to blog about. I think my butt has expanded in size as a result of just sitting in front of the laptop during the exams period >.<

And my Pretty Little Liars Episode 18 is 70.7% downloaded. So I shall watch that after its done. Seriously its the most addictive show after The Mentalist :)

With pretty cast like this why wouldn't you watch it? 72.6% done now. Okay bye!

The time has come

2011-02-21T15:03:00.000+08:00

Lack of updates due to 20% mugging, 80% laziness. I think I'm slacking too much for someone who is having a paper tomorrow >.< I only did like 1/4 topics notes? And its annoying that I don't feel panic at all TSK.

I'm super addicted to changing my laptop's theme and wallpaper. Like majorly addicted. I will check devianart like every week for new themes updates. And I cannot make up my mind as to which wallpaper to use.

I have simple ones like this:

Random stuffs like this:

And pretty scenes like this:

And of these as wallpaper very chio. HAHA.

Recently, YG been releasing all the concept photos for Big Bang comeback and like I'm making them as wallpaper too. They're releasing their album on the 24th! Woopdeedooo. Can't wait :)

(Y) (Y) (Y) (Y)

Anyway, I'm gonna continue doing notes now. Hopefully will be able to finish by 6pm so that I can start studying by 7pm. HEH. I think I did this entry just to procrastinate >.<

Kthxbye. Click on the ads please! :)

The thing that makes my brain goes mad

2011-02-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

Well, well, well I visited Tumblr for a new picture for my post and I just remembered its Valentine's Day :) Its where love is in the airrrrrr. Okay fine, I'm just sleepy and information overload in my brain so forgive me.

Finally done with studying Entrepreneurship. Started around 7pm? Still managed to watch the last 30mins of Forbidden Kingdom on Channel 5 and eat dinner and drink tea in between oh and raid my mum's wardrobe for any new stuffs that may be wearable for me (there's one black top HAHA). My sister looks at my mum's wardrobe too cuz she has an array of dresses which I'll forbid my sister to buy since we share the wardrobe. Okay back to topic. And I even managed to went through all chapters again. All I can hope is that I'll remember everything and I'll major ace this test :)

And I found something on Tumblr:

I hate coming in second all the time. It’s not that I’m competitive or anything, I just can’t stand the fact that I’m not good enough. I try and try and try, but it’s as if I wasn’t meant to shine. Like if were to race someone in anything, they would probably beat me by a millisecond. If there were two people that were about to fall off a cliff and that person could only save one of us, I would probably be the one to fall. Or if they accidentally made plans on the same day we were supposed to hang out, they would just cancel on me last minute and spend time with them instead. Just once, I wish I could be above everyone else. I’m tired of being in a competition I never signed up for. - cdeezy.tumblr.com

Well, I guess I can't really run away from being second in the house cuz yeah I am the second child. I may have spoken again to the person mentioned in the post before this but I guess I'm too forgiving. Oh well.

Let's see I have this to bear before I can finally like say I'm done with Polytechic:
~~14th Feb - Entrepreneurship~~
~~16th Feb - Negotiation Skills~~
22nd Feb - Event Budgeting & Control
28th Feb - Special Events Project Management & Marketing
2nd March - Venue & Space Management

So there. I'm gonna ace this tests/exams. Yes, I will. And omg this picture below is so chio:

Okay its the hair that's chio. And yes, I still haven't decide what to do with my hair. I'm so fickle minded >.<

Morning paper later so GOODBAM! :)

Blood ties are meant to be strong

2011-02-12T19:15:00.000+08:00

Okay I know I'm supposed to be studying but I just watched 3 episodes of 90210 Season 1. I intended to watch like one only? >.< So now I'm again procrastinating and listening to Avril Lavigne's first album (Y) I only did 2 chapters of notes for Entrepreneurship. Omgeee.

So anyway, today I was kind of pissed as I am constantly reminded of how much I am lacking. Its bad enough having imperfections that is impossible to hide and having to be reminded of another imperfection you have is not helping me feel any better. Sometimes I do envy her. Oh yes, she's two years older than me, the eldest child, the first grandchild thus yeah everyone loves her and she's the mature one and the better one. She's graduating from a university and going to start work and earn big bucks soon and she's pretty and skinny and tall and has no evident imperfections whatsoever. Oh yes, she's perfect.

But that doesn't give her a right to actually call me names and point out what I'm lacking or what I need to shed apparently. I know even though I got 244 and beat her 236 for PSLE and nearly went to Cedar Girls all is forgotten cuz I didn't do as good as her for the O's. And even now that my current GPA is higher than the GPA that she graduated with, people are still gonna compare. That's why I'm deciding to go to a better university than SIM. And then people will just gush about how tall she is, how skinny she is. And she's gonna brag that people want her body. But why does she have to put me down every time? She wants to invest in getting invisalign yet never keeping her promises to me. And I know I don't have the right but that 6-7k can be used to 1) Pay me back for her SIM fees and 2) Actually try to help me out and fund my skin treatment. So then I wouldn't be such an eyesore to her. Well lesser of an eyesore.

Its demoralising when you're home and people tell you that you're fat wearing this, wearing that when you tried dressing up. And then when you're back to t-shirt and jeans they'll be like, don't you have other clothes to wear? And when you like wearing black and not because you think it has a slimming effect but its really cuz you like black, they'll think you're just trying to make yourself look skinnier. And when your friends out there tells you they like your hair, its nice if you don't pin it up and you look chio with hair down but when at home everyone's telling you that your hair's too messed up and you should totally tie it up. And worse is when people in your house don't even have a single fucking scar or rashes at any of their fucking body parts and you have them everywhere and you have to live with never being able to wear anything above the ankles, not being able to go to the beach cuz wth who wears jeans to a beach, and have to live with wearing skin colour stockings during your dance performance and worrying about the costume every single time when others have only their dance to worry about.

Yes, story of my life.

I really don't need pity. All I need is understanding and a bit of tact would help too.

And trust me when I have the means, I'll improve myself so much that you'll regret ever saying bad things about me.

What the future holds [edited]

2011-02-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of school as a 3rd year student. Like somehow the class got so bonded. HAHAHAH.

I was updating in my LJ and then it dawned on me that this is not rant and there's nothing wrong with sharing it to a larger base of audience.

I'm supposed to be applying for universities like now. So anyway, this is what I'm considering:

Singapore Institute of Technology (SIT)
- Bachelor of Science in Hotel Administration
*by University of Nevada, Las Vegas

National University of Singapore (NUS)
- The Bachelor of Science (Project & Facilities Management) (Honours)
- Bachelor of Social Sciences (Honours) in Psychology

National Technological University (NTU)
- The Bachelor of Arts in Psychology (Honours)

So there you go. I'm only looking at SMU after March. Since their open house is in March and their application is until April. And I'm not looking at SIM at all. HAHA.

And nope I'm not taking Psychology in SP now. I'm taking Diploma in Integrated Events and Project Management. So yes, there's not that much option for me if I were further my studies in Events. In fact there's none really >.<

The idea of being a university student is like super awesome. But at the same time, I don't want to be so positive cuz hello I only have like 3.2 GPA. So yeah. I don't know why the idea of taking Psychology suddenly comes to me. And my plans for the future is simple. Starting this week it will be:

1) Ace my tests
2) Ace my exams
3) Apply for university
4) Find a part time job after my last paper
5) Hopefully accepted to a university
6) Embark on a journey as a University student
7) In the process, work part time to fund myself as well as get on with my self improvement which includes:
- Skin treatment (this is major cuz I feel that it will help me better in my future career appeal)
- Learn Mandarin (VITAL!)
- Maybe another language? Like Korean or Japanese. HAHA.
8) And after my university education, start work!

So yes. This is my plans. But don't ask me what I want to be or what kind of career am I looking at cuz I haven't gone into so much detail. As a graduate in Bachelor of Psychology, there are many options out there. Especially in people related stuffs. In Hospitality I guess I'll look more into hotel management post?

It is so much easier when you're 12 and everything is pretty much laid out to you.

Supposed to be studying Entrepreneurship. Oh well.

@2.57AM I just finished doing Topic 1 notes. There's six topics in total for Monday's Entrepreneurship paper. For the first time ever, I'm making use of plain white paper (on one side cuz the other side are those from documents that are printed wrongly. Recycle yo.), coloured pens and markers as well as post it notes! The neon kind. I went stationery shopping today. A mini one. Bought 3 G1 black refill, Post it notes, black eraser and a black pen. Tempted to buy a lot of other stuffs but budget is $5 and the abovementioned already cost me $5.90 HAHAHA.
I'll choose stationery shopping over shopping for clothes anytime :) Back to topic 2.

As easy as ABC

2011-02-10T22:58:00.001+08:00

If you think this video is awesome, help to vote!!
Click here: http://www.thisishome.sg/video.php?v=IIbmlHwGhJk.

I'm inside ok! Although I look damn shag and short. Its after dance and Stella is confirm wearing heels beside me! HMPH. HAHHA. But anyway, its an awesome video so please do help vote! My friend made this video! HEHE. Come one its damn easy ok :)

Kthxbye!

PS: I'll try to update this weekend. Tests and exams are coming! And tomorrow is my last day of school! Omgg.

Another late update

2011-02-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey. I shall post some super outdated photos now. HAHA. WAVES 15 post will be the next one I promise! :)

First of all, photos taken from Danzation! The show was awesome btw. The fact that it was held in UCC was already major. And they had so many sponsors that they are not even keeping their ticket sales. They are donating it! WTF. How they get money for their costumes?! So anyway yeah. Only me, Yus and Sab went this time. I mean out of the usual 7. HAHA.

In the toilet:

And then through these photos we found out that whoever's taking the photos will look pretty retarded. HAHAHA.

While waiting for the other people to come. Which took damn long btw >.<

Sab had this app thingy on her iPhone. Can take 6 photos one after another and it will form like this:

This one cuz we didn't know she was still using the app thingy. So yep! That's all for Danzation photos :)

Next: Meiliang's 21st birthday party. Its pretty small scale and she invited only some dancers and her family were there. She's the oldest Senja yo. HEHE.

Dancers who were there:

Dancers with the birthday girl:

And me with Meiliang :)

*Frames edited with Photoscape.

PS: I don't like! >.<

With the birthday cake! Its really very nice! HAHA. Sab ate ALOT.

And other random shots.

*Wasn't that good mood that day. Thus the stiff face. HAHA.

SO yep. End of belated posts :)

Wednesday (2nd Feb) marks the start of long CNY break. Worked on 2nd Feb for a dinner event. Super tiring and I had blisters (yes, from wearing flats. Retarded I know) but I had fun and cabbed home and there's EC! HAHA. Worked with Yus and Fadli so the company was pretty awesome though Fadli doesn't know how to shut up. HAHAHA. But yeah. Its my first time doing serving so its an experience for me. Plus pay was pretty good! 15/h! Who don't want?! And it was ready the day after but I don't know when I'm going to take it!

3rd Feb and today is stay-at-home-and-do-nothing-productive-day. Yesterday I watched 1 episode of Oh My School, several WGM parts, 2 episodes of Dream High, Easy A and Confessions of a Shopaholic! And I have 68 movies downloaded. HEHE. Today I watched 1 episode of Oh My School only. Downloaded 2 latest episodes of Pretty Little Liars though! Shall watch them after this.

Tomorrow and Sunday, I'll do my 2 reports and prepare for my interview on Monday I promise :)

So I was chosen to go to Osaka for a dance trip! Okay I make it sound super awesome to my parents cuz I want them to let me go. But its just Aug choosing us and not like the school or whatever. HAHA. And as usual, for trips like this where money is involved, that's the only thing that my parents will question about. Edusave can be used but mine only has 1.2k left so I'm planning to use my elder sister's one for the balance! And plus my passport have expired and I don't have a luggage so you see, I have tonnes to worry about. Whether or not I'm going is based on this percentage progression:

~~20% Augustin text~~. Cuz initially only Gladys asked me about it. And since no one asked me I go for what right?

~~30% My Senjas are going as well~~. Currently 5 of us are chosen. Sadly, Yus and Meiliang is not :(

~~40% I decide to go and mum agrees~~ (she said to ask my dad -.-)

~~60% My dad agrees.~~ Well, he only said 'Settle the Edusave payments first'. Means ok la. HAHA.

70% Make passport!

85% Edusave payments approved!

95% Money for expenses!

100% Luggage settled!

So my current percentage: 60%! I shall make my passport next week. And hopefully details of the trip is settled next week as well so that I can settle the Edusave stuffs (cuz it takes 3-4 weeks to be processed! FML). Its so annoying that I have to worry so much while others just need an approval from their parents and just ok. It sucks, sucks, sucks. But surprisingly I want this so much and I'm going to make it happen! :) Please pray for me that I can go. Please, please, please.

And the $150 that I'll be getting from the 2nd Feb job will be gone to make passport + D&D preparation. $150 GONE :'(

Kthxbye! WAVES 15 post next :)

Sweet memories

2011-01-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

WAVES 15 HAS COME TO AN END.

Had lots of fun and everytime I think about it, it makes me feel sad cuz I'll be graduating. Sure its always possible to come back but the feeling is different. And the fact is, I don't know what the future holds for me. How if I don't come back? Will people forget me? 10 years no, 3 years from now, will the juniors will Ryan still remember who is Nadiah? It makes me sad you know.

But I've learnt a lot and I appreciate all that have been around me these past 3 years. Sweet memories, bitter ones, touching experiences and more is some that I've gotten from SDZ. Seriously, I love you people. Despite my flaws and weakness, all is put aside and we can all just dance together.

I'll do a proper post when all the photos are up :) For now, this is SDZ <3

PS MY LEGS LOOK SO SHORT >.<

Short update

2011-01-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

Rehearsals for WAVES 15 going on >.< So tiring and I don't know how to juggle with my workload. I don't think I can.

Anyway COME COME COME SUPPORT ME!! SEND ME A TEXT FOR HOW MANY TICKETS YOU WANT :)))

Today is 26th January.

Tomorrow is 27th January.

Friday and Saturday is 28th and 29th January = WAVES 15!!! >.<

It will be awesome. Yes it will. HEHE.

Breathing through the final lap

2011-01-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a very long time. Oh well what to do, work is overwhelming and when I'm taking a break I'm watching videos (MBLAQ Idol Army, Oh My School, Dream High, Survivor China). And of course catching up on my sleep.

The reason for the above picture? In a way, the reason why we want to change ourselves is because of what people think of us. There's no denying of stereotypes really. Citing real life example; oh the girl is wearing leotard for dance, she's a ballet dancer. LOL. So yeah. Of course me like anyone else, have one major thing that I want to change on the way I look. I hate having people look at my flaws and continuously asking me about it. And yeah when I hide my flaws, I guess I do get more attention but its depressing to forever hide and its fucking hot in Singapore by the way. Erm I don't know whether you all know what I'm talking about. But whatever. I guess as I get older, I try to tell myself to not care but easier said than done. And now that I get older and understand that things can get done, I'm determined to work, earn money and work towards removing my flaws.

Ok I have nothing much to ramble on. Pretty busy with work plus Waves so I haven't got much of a social life (as usual). So I shall just post pictures from Tumblr as usual. Follow me here!! I confirm follow you back. HAHA. I immensely enjoy backtracking my Tumblr dashboard. Pictures below is from here :)

My love list:

Ok that's all. Its all from this awesome Tumblr: http://tinydolls.tumblr.com/ :))

PS: I doubt I'll be updating this week cuz I'll be preparing for my WAVES concert!! There are still tickets so contact me if you want to come!! :)))

KTHXBYE!

Its all in the mind

2011-01-15T03:50:00.000+08:00

Have not updated for freaking long already.

Mulling about at this hour:

1) My future

2) My sister's future (FML I even have to worry about this)

3) Assignments and more

4) WAVES 15

Kthxbye.

Summing up 2010

2011-01-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Been wanting to make a recap of 2010 since erm 1st of Jan 2011. HAHAHA. The purpose is just to see what I've been doing in 2010 and of course wondering whether I'll be the same this 2011 :)

I had my first post on exactly on 1st January 2010. And hmm I was already pretty hyped up on the kpop stuffs listing all my favourite idols. LOL. Means I started following kpop in 2009?? >.< On 5th January, I joined 2NE1's international forum, YGLadies. And then I started reading on Daragon stuffs (Y)

And I finally have wireless connection at home on 16th January. When everyone else have probably upgrade theirs like 10 times already. HAHA. I was also the one who figured out the connection. Oh how smart am I. HAHAHA. Blogged about my funny Resource Procurement teacher. Can't remember his name but his lessons are plain hilarious. And apparently I wanted to start a new diet plan. And obviously I didn't follow it cuz I can't remember anything now. HAHAHAHA. But I think its a pretty good diet. Not the starving kind of diet.

Had That's the Way It is performance after like a year. It was very memorable from what I remembered :) Had a number of videos that Angeline posted on Facebook. The original was a Vivo performance and pictures we took. Omg those times when we were drilled so hard by Charlotte but in the end, Jieling still make a super obvious and hilarious mistake. HAHA.

Started being obsessed with Strawberry Milk Tea (I just drank one today oops) HAHA. Did a long post on Secondary School memories. Memories, memories. Finished watching You're Beautiful within 4 days when I was supposed to be studying for my exams. And that show is really very awesome. Finally got my 2 new leggings plus rambled on about Chrome in this post. Still using Chrome now. And yes it is still very awesome to me :)

Had a full week of dance when there's this period of time where we had genre training. Took up Hiphop (taught by An An), LA Hiphop (taught by Anne) and Girls Hiphop (taught by Khai). Went for combined training plus modern's genre training and I remembered that 6 weeks I totally lost weight even though I had Macs supper like almost everyday after 10pm. I guess Hiphop do burn down more fats but now that I think about it, I don't really regret quitting.

OMG I JUST DISCOVERED WHEN MY KNEE STARTED BEING PAINFUL. Since 16th March 2010. I remembered that it was during the genre training period but now I know when :/ Omg it has been so long uh? Complained super alot about my knee here. So I guess this was when my knee got worse.

Had a Senja Outing. And I did a recollection of how Senja came about! HAHA. Attended my first ever CIP with the club which was a flag day organised by Wing. Its the first time that I took CIP seriously! HAHA.

And I was finally a Final Year student on this day. Still had a lot of dance stuffs as well. After 6 weeks of genre training, finally had a showcase. Which went pretty well. I even have the videos on my laptop. HEHE.

My 500th post. Being a warden for FO Camp. Remembered the bad stuffs that happened though there were some good ones. Got to know my Year 1 juniors thanks to this camp as well :) Had a memorable birthday celebration for my mum who was so touched that she cried. Aww. Made a list of random things I like and hate. I started being obsessed with pretty pictures on Tumblr.

Participate in YOG!! First practice (I think). And then @Mandai Camp where it was raining so played a lot of games. Lots of hardcore trainings. Finished YOG Opening Ceremony. Took quite a number of pictures. Decided to take part in the Closing Ceremony as well. A very fun and extremely memorable experience :) And thanks to YOG, I get to go to Resort World Sentosa!!

Had these people to thank for my 19th birthday wishes :) And then 2NE1 had their comeback after like a year. Raya picture spams for like the first 2 days as well as another day that we went out. I like cuz I look pretty. HAHA.

Another Senja Outing where we celebrate Aznita's birthday. And it was also the day that I took a blood test to help in CLS FYP! Clique Outing (minus Qide) where we finally have photos. My aunt got married! Hopefully they'll have a blissful marriage :) And another Senja Outing where we celebrate Jiahui's birthday. Plus here's another random list. And celebrated Sab's and Gladys' birthday.

Super a lot of site visits. To museums, MBS, Helix Bridge, Youth Olympic Park, Career Fair, BMW World exhibition, Sun Festival and Standard Chartered Marathon.

Remembered that I watched damn a lot of dance concerts/performances/competitions in 2010. Here's a list:
1) T.H.E Dance performance @NUS. Super abstract and don't really enjoy it.
2) TPDE Concert @TP. Not as awesome as I expect it to me but it was pretty good.
3) Singapore Dance Delight. Pretty good crews in Singapore!
4) Fuyo Competition @SMU. Had lots of fun cheering the teams on.
5) The Big Groove. Which was super awesome.
6) NTU Concert. Love the partnerwprk!
7) O School Recital @Scape. (pictures) Another awesome show.
8) SHHKACT @RP. I really love this show even though its Chinese Dance :)
9) FB Concert. Pretty good and the production team is awesome la.
Oh and I'll be going to NRA on 8th Jan! :)

And my final post for 2010. Where I was struggling to finish FYP. Today is 6th January and I have handed it up on the 5th. Woopdeedoo. Finally done. I hope I'll get a good grade :)

Yep so that sums up my 2010. Start of school, a few more weeks of assignments, tutorials, reports, lectures and presentations and I'll be graduating. Still scared and nervous and still don't know what I want to do.

Oh yeah Pretty Little Liars is BACKKKK!! Omg I'm so happy. That I watched the latest episode already. HAHA. I have to catch on The Vampire Diaries though. Oh wells.

Kthxbye!

Just a bit more time left.

2011-01-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

As life has been pretty mundane with me just rushing to finish up my assignments, this post will be another random and full of pictures post! All photos from Tumblr + Google :) HEHE.

Current hairstyle obsession: Fishtail! Super nice. I'll take damn long to do but end result always very nice! It has that messy appeal that I really like :) Though it looks like normal braids, its not at all. 625465 times more chio.

Current style obssession: Layered, loose fitting, stockings combination. Ok its not exactly current. I've liked this style since I started browsing through lookbook. Currently looking for the exact outfit in the second picture! The checkered outerwear obviously can be used as a top too so its extremely versatile. And I want denim shorts. The one that I have has that FBT cutting at the side and after wearing it a couple of times, I realised its quite unflattering LOL. Stockings no problem since I have like, 3 black leggings (mainly for dance), assorted colours of stockings (skin colour, black, dark blue, gray, red, purple, green, bright pink. Yes I have this much). Woohoo I can't wait for my sister's next pay since she say she'll have about 1.5k (god knows from which job). And might be going overseas too! Woopdeedoo.

Okay, I've digressed.

Current kpop EC #1: Jonghun from FT Island :) I know I've liked Hongki before. But omg this guy here is 6524 more cuter! But since he's the guitars he don't get that much airtime. But omg HE IS VERY CUTE :)))

Current kpop EC #2: Dongwoon from B2ST! I was never a fan of B2ST (don't ask me why) but the first time I watched them, he was the one who caught my eye! HAHA he don't look very Asian. And obviously DAMN CUTE. LOL. He had a duet with the leader of the group (always forget the name), Doojoon! Damn nice I repeat it like damn a lot of times. Watch their live performance:

Guys playing piano is so so so so so (Y)

Current obsession: Sandara Park of 2NE1! Haha ok this one is not current also but she cut her hair short and she look so much younger!! She's 26 by the way! Looks younger than even people twice younger! (Okay exaggeration. Twice is 13. HAHAHA) But still. Oh and I dreamt that my hair was this hairstyle the other time! And now I am highly contemplating to cut my hair! Really very, very sceptical cuz I love my hair now!

Okay so that sums up my current obsessions list. For now. I still want to blog about how I like 2NE1 (yes, I said this long ago) and summing up 2010! Which I don't know when I'll have the time to do. Later this week I guess. For now I have to worry until Wednesdays since everything is happening today, Tuesday and Wednesday. And to sum it all up:

And for the New Year,

Kthxbye!

Busy bee

2010-12-31T12:57:00.002+08:00

Been doing my FYP. Have to finish this super badly. Submission on 5th January and there's still alot to be done. URGH.

Currently working from home cuz I'm down with fever. Will update when I finally have some room to breathe.

Kthxbye.

EDIT:
I'LL BE PERFORMING FOR WAVES 15 WHICH IS AN ANNUAL DANCE CONCERT BY SDZ (STRICTLY DANCE ZONE/SP DANCE CLUB). HELD ON 28TH (FRIDAY) & 29TH (SATURDAY) JANUARY, 7PM @SP CONVENTION CENTRE. TICKETS COSTS $12 EACH.

COME SUPPORT ME!!! CONTACT ME AND TELL ME WHICH DAY YOU'RE COMING AND HOW MANY TICKETS YOU WANT. TELL ME ASAP K!! Cuz I forgot to publicise and I have to give the money soon. LOL. IT WILL BE AN AWESOME SHOW AND ANYWAY YOU GET TO SEE ME! FIRST COME FIRST SERVE, WHILE STOCKS LAST! HEHE :)))

According to books, it should be snowing now

2010-12-24T22:26:00.001+08:00

I wish that I can sew my own clothes. So that I don't have to buy them. And make it so unique that there's only one piece in the whole world. But I suck at even simple stitching. The only thing I enjoy sewing is cross stitch! HAHA. I did one before but like I said I don't know how to do the simple stitching at the sides that shapes the pouch so yeah. Only the picture is nice but the whole pouch doesn't really turn out well.

Its Christmas tomorrow. I don't celebrate Christmas so this 4 days (Thursday to Sunday) has been a good holiday. Break from everything. Pretty much, dance, FYP and social life. HAHA. I'm totally going to be glued on my laptop. Yes I am. I don't care. Let's see, yesterday alone I watched 2 episodes of 90210 Season 1, 2 episodes of Privileged, 2 episodes of Family Outing and 6 episodes of Survivor Cook Islands. Yes I know I'm supposed to do my FYP. I promise to do it tomorrow :) I even turned down a bbq today. Yayness. The idea of eating and sitting around with a bunch of people that I don't talk to and wasting my time just stoning around doesn't fly by me. I'd rather be with my laptop. Today wasn't so hardcore. I watched 6 episodes of Survivor Cook Islands only. HEHE. So what if I have no life. I don't care.

Up to date, my younger sister have not received her posting for her further studies and it worries all of us. She's never the intellectual kind and the only thing that makes her work hard is cooking, the kitchen and eating. So yeah it worries me very much. And what's more worrying is the fees involved if she were to go to a private institution and with my elder sister still has one more semester to go for her uni education and then there's me. There's a possibility of further studies. The costs worries me very much. The price to pay for education is terrifying and overwhelming. At one point of time I'm sure I have to make sacrifices and work to help lessen the load no matter what my dad says.

This has been pretty much a messy post. With me changing topics every paragraph. There's nothing much going on in my life right now. HEH.

All I want for Christmas is to be happy.

To whom it may concern, Merry Christmas :)

GhettoElectric

2010-12-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hey ho. Its Sunday. The end of a hectic first week of school holidays. I don't think I ever had a holiday ever since I entered SP and SDZ. LOL. Its forever a dance filled holidays everytime. Oh well. Like what my mum always say, 'Since you like dancing so much...'

Anyway, yesterday was a packed day. Had modern training in the morning. I came early ok. Was the 2nd one to come with Angeline. It was a short training. But a tiring one nevertheless. Ryan taught another choreo. And then after that was vetting. It was a mini one since the instructors were not there to watch. And I did horrible. Terribly horrible. I remembered my steps perfectly fine. Timing, execution and formations were all off. No excuses. I will do harder next vetting. Yes, I will. And then rushed home. Had only 45mins to get ready. Went to eat Popeye's first with Yus, Sab and Cherie. SP should open that instead of a second Macs. Seriously.

And then it was.... FB concert :) When we came it was mad freaking long queue. But don't know why they opened a 2nd door and we just moved in. HAHAHAHHA.

The concert was not awesome but it was a good and entertaining show. In terms of production wise, it was a good show. Not all of the items were good, not all of the dancers were strong. But as a whole, they were unified and they put up a good one. The video aka Fakebook thingy was damn awesome. And showmanship wise, they know how to present themselves. The audience were mad freaking high too. They cheered throughout! So yeah, it was a good show :)

And we're gonna make Waves 15 an awesome one no matter what.

~~Side note: I saw my EC looking cute as ever. LOL.~~

Pictures time! All taken by Jiahui's cam (which I just returned LOL). There are some other photos which others haven't upload so this is all for now. HEHE.

Was sitting beside Jiahui. Thus the many pictures with her :)

With Gladys! She sat with her family but came to take pictures during interval :)

Senjas who went :)

MY SENIORS! <333

Charlotteeeeeeeeeeeeee!

And Cherieeeeeeeeeeee :)

With other SDZ people who came

Oh and the school is really pretty. This picture is taken cuz of the pretty water thingy which looks like a swimming pool! HAHA.

Alrighty that's all for now. And watch these 3 videos if you haven't!

Just a Dream by Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie. I know I posted it before. LOL.

Don't Stop the Music by 2NE1. Its actually for an advertisement.

And I'm really proud of them cuz they made comeback only in September yet they are considered to be one of the best in the year 2010 with all the others who have been promoting waaaaay earlier.

Plus the song is awesome and addictive. HAHA.

High High by GDragon and TOP (BigBang)

They made comeback at Inkigayo today! Super awesome.

Alrighty that's all for now. Since its Christmas next week, I can have a bit of a breather I guess.

Kthxbye :)

Expression ♥ Impression

2010-12-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

Super belated post. But better late than never right? :)

Went to SHHKACT show on 4th December. It was on the same day as Ms Nora's wedding (Post here) so it was a rushing day. Its mainly cuz I'm not used to doing so many stuffs in one day. Thankfully dance was cancelled that day due to MSTs the following week.

Some information:
SHHK stands for Singapore Hokkien Huay Kuan. Its like an organisation. SHHKACT stands for Singapore Hokkien Huay Kuan Arts & Cultural Troupe. And I just googled and they have websites! HAHAHA. I didn't know. Here: SHHK/SHHKACT.

So yeah why am I like going to some chinese stuffs? Its cuz my Secondary School instructor (Ms Jenny) is one of the teachers/choreographers there! *Erm okay the website is in chinese -.-. So anyway, the RSS moderners joined one of their practice one time. Not the best experience. Chinese dancers definitely train more, has more discipline and are really very good and flexible! >.< So yeah ever since Ms Jenny promoted the show to us in Secondary School I've never missed it. Like a tradition every year. HEHE. Time for pictures woopdeedoo.

HEHE of course must take picture at home right!

The few times I wear contacts out :)

*Random note: My favourite body part is the collarbones!

Mine is not obvious cuz I'm not skinny :( Other than the last picture on the first row. HEHE.

Yus didn't go this time round. Well, tickets was $22 >.< So it was just Diy :)

And Yuan Yi :)

And Yixin and Semantha :)

And Yixin brought her polaroid!!

I super love the pictures cuz its super flattering! Makes the skin looked flawless you know? But its quite expensive for long term use. The camera itself is affordable I guess but the film is the pricey one >.<

I LIKE THE CENTER ONE!! But its with Yixin :( She's nice enough to let me keep the left and Diy the right :)

Other polaroids taken.

And this is with Ms Jenny! Which she kept obviously. HAHA.

Some other random shots.

My favourite picture of the day:

Okay la cuz I look nice la. HAHA.

And the performers:

Ms Jenny & Ruiling <3

Ruiling! My modern dance senior! She have become so skinny!!

And since I look nice on that day......

HEHEHHEHEHE. At home after the show :)

Dance this whole week. Was already drained out from Monday. Managed to submit the draft for final report of FYP. Still has lots to do. Only 7k words so far + website not done. And 22 more days left >.< URGHHHH.

Say hi to another holiday filled with madness, dance and FYP :)

Now playing: E.T by Katy Perry.

Duty calls

2010-12-06T22:43:00.007+08:00

LAST EDITED: 11.27pm, Friday (10/12/2010)

Time now: 10.40pm, Monday night

Started studying: 9.40pm

Topics covered: 2/3

I have to ace this. I can, I will, I must.

Test progress:
~~Tuesday - Event Budgeting and Control~~
07/12/2010, 1.03pm
Went pretty well I guess. Missed out one point for the internal ways to manage cash flow. Racked my brains damn long for it. I knew there were 5 points. They asked for 4, I remembered only 3 >.< Oh well. Bought OCK and SMT and I shall now watch one episode of The Mentalist before embarking on my Negotiation revision.

Time now: 10.58pm, Tuesday night
Started studying: 8.30pm
Pages covered: 18/20

Progressing pretty well. Left with 3 more parts? Then I shall revise what I've memorised and read through the rest that I didn't. KTHXBYE.

~~Wednesday - Negotiation~~
08/12/2010, 12.33pm
Went well again. I just think that I wasted my memory space cuz the 25questions is way too much and the questions tested was so minimal -.- Did missed out on a few stuffs though. Oh well. Bought snacks again today. Yesterday I bought, OCK spicy squid + breaded prawns and SMT. And I ate sour cream and onion ruffles leftover from the previous day. Today I bought, OCK spicy squid, squid body, chicken wing, SMT, caramel corn >.< I have no self control at all man. Ok tomorrow no snacks. I'm supposed to be saving money!!

Shall watch my daily dose of The Mentalist and maybe WGM if its already subbed. GTG.

~~Thursday - Venue and Space Management~~
09/12/10, 4.30pm
Woopdeedoo (my new fav phrase LOL) its one more paper left! Today's paper was okay as well I think. Though yeah I crapped here and there but oh well. I miss playing Sally's game so I'm downloading Sally's Spa now! I already downloaded Sally's Salon and Sally's Studio yesterday. LOL. And I'm finding Chocolatier also! Just found out there's a third edition! Woopdeedoooo.

I shall get my daily dose of The Mentalist then study wuddy. (no such word I know) HAHHAHA.

Time now: 12.18am, Friday morning

Started studying: YET TO START

Pages covered: YET TO START

Paper is at 9.30am. Good job Nadiah, good job. Been writing notes. Played alot of Sally's games. And watch TV. URGH URGH URGH. Ok fine studying starts now. Aim to sleep by 2am!!

~~Friday - Special Events Project Management and Marketing~~
10/12/10, 11.27pm
First time I'm saying this but I think I screwed up the paper. Mixed up a lot of information. Forgot some. Oh well. How can I think of Amber Lounge when I knew it was Paddock Club. Dammit. Oh well. What's done is done no use fretting over it *that's what I say but obviously I am still fretting over it. LOL.

SO WOOPDEEDOOO MSTS ARE OVER!!! Although at the back of my mind. Its like panic mode. End of this = exams coming up + FYP due + GRADUATION. Fuck I'm not ready yet. I don't know where I want to go. I don't know where my future is. All this while its just study, study, study get as high as possible blablabla. But now is when I have to make my own decisions and there's no more 'template' for me to follow. I have to be an adult and really think what I want to do. Next year I'll be 20 years and the next will be 21 and I'll be a full fledged adult. I really wish I'm back to 16 again. Ok make that 17. Let O's be over. HAHA.

Urgh ok the point is. I'm scared. And uncertain. And insecure. Good luck to me eh.

Dance tomorrow. And everyday for the next week >.< Double good luck to me. I still have to worry about FYP. Make that triple. Oh god.

Forever and always

2010-12-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

Can't believe I'm actually blogging again. Well technically it is a new day so yeah just take this as Monday's post :)

Didn't study at all today. Just faked writing notes. LOL with The Mentalist playing in the background. Oh well. I'll start tomorrow/later.

Ran out of things to do and don't feel like watching The Mentalist anymore after 3 eps so I decided to compile/edit photos from Sab and Gladys' birthday celebration :) I'm sleepy already so I shall make this fast.

It was one day belated from the actual 26th November. The rest of us met up earlier to make a book for them. First day was me and Yus and then the following time, the rest pitched in too. Until at last it was only me, Yus and Jiahui left. We were doing it in the library project room. I'm not that arty farty so its mainly Yus doing most of the stuffs. HAHA.

The amount of mess we made:

The completed books :)

And the three left. It was so dark that the clear window looks like a mirror. HAHA.

And then the celebration was the day after which was a Saturday. Normal modern training went well. In fact I enjoyed it very much. So the initial plan was JL will bring in the cake with flowers and chocolates and act as if that's the birthday present and we will only give the book like way after that when we went out. But then, the juniors also prepared a cake for them so the idea was scraped and in the end we asked JL to buy flowers and chocolates only :)

The birthday people <3 :)

And with Jiahui's camera obviously must use the self timer thingy! So we took 10 shots with Ryan! (Y)

After that we went to Secret Recipe @Vivo to have lunch! Yes, I had my Fish & Chips. HAHA. The books were still hidden oh and Liern had to fake stomachache so that she can stay in the toilet long enough to write her messages!

This is us. Cherie was the photographer :)

*Jiahui kind of looks cute la. HAHA.

When we finally gave the books to Gladys and Sabrina:

This was the initial reaction. But Sab started crying (not posting up the photo) and Gladys refused to read cuz she's afraid she will cry too! HAHA I think if I were to get also I will cry la. And they were not expecting it which make it all the better :)

After everyone calmed down (ok maybe not Sab HAHA) we played Old Maid! Yes, the super duper old school game!

HEHE WONG JIELING WAS THE OLD MAID :)

With Auntie in the train! :)

HEHE! I know Sab and Gladys enjoyed themselves :) I love you both! <3

Full album here and here.

Alrighty. I'm sleepy. Goodnight!

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Whatever will be, will be

2010-12-05T16:36:00.000+08:00

For the first time ever this is not a just-woke-up-time. Its a Sunday and I woke up at 7.30. All for Standard Chartered Marathon site visit >.< Usually I would have woken up at 3pm. Woke up with a headache. The day did not get any better. Some effort would be appreciated really. I want to stay back and follow sometimes. Some more with the stupid sun shining on my already throbbing head. How much worse can it get?

So anyway, I have this thingy about sleeping in the afternoon. Previous times it has worked but now no. I cannot take naps or sleep in the afternoon. The part about it keeping me fresh the rest of the day is bull to me. I will wake up fine feel fresh but back to sleepy in like 1h time. So that's why I'm not in my bed now taking an afternoon nap which I would normally do if today was last month. My body must be pretty screwed up.

I'm supposed to be studying. But paper's on Tuesday and I can't study early so today is a full break :) HEHE. And I know I'm supposed to blog about Sab and Gladys' celebration but I haven't put together the photos yet. So many photos!! HAHA.

Went to Ms Nora's wedding yesterday before the SHHK concert (which I will blog about after BY and YY have uploaded the photos). It was major awkward cuz I don't usually spend time with the crowd that went. The only person that I'm close with is F and she have a bf now so yep. HAHA. I brought my camera but decided not to take any pictures. So below are all from my friend's camera in which I was tagged in FB :) *Except for the first one.

At home, getting ready.

Trimmed my fringe again. Why does the fringe grows faster than the rest of the hair?!

While eating:

The people who went:

HMM I was pretty stiff in all of the pictures >.<

And this is with the bride and groom!

---------- End of wedding post ----------

Read some Zodiac stuffs today. And there is such thing as having 2 zodiacs! Its called cusp.

If your birthday falls near the beginning or end of a Sun Sign (see dates below) you were born on the cusp. Essentially you have the characteristics of two Sun Signs combined

Cr: http://zodiacfacts.blogspot.com/2010/09/cusp-signs.html

Since I'm born on 22nd august, I'm a Leo-Virgo cusp :) The stuffs are really true la. But I don't like the fact that Leo = arrogant. I'm not arrogant :( But this part is true: "This cusp is conflicted by Leo's drama and Virgo's lack of sociability." Ironic and totally incongruent with each other but I get what its trying to say. Maybe it also explains my mood swings. HAHA.

Alrighty that's all for now. I'm currently downloading 90210 Season 1 and 2. I haven't watch the recent 2 eps of The Vampire Diaries and I haven't started on GG Season 3 but I shall watch The Mentalist now. Its the best show ever.

Kthxbye. Again, please click on the ads :)

Or else it will take me 63524675 years to pay back D for D&D :(

I feel the earth move under my feet

2010-12-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm in a good mood so I shall blog again. I blogged yesterday btw :)

What happened today:

1) Came for R's tutorial (was late, as usual) and then discovered that Career Fair report is due 12pm and not 5pm. So rushed off to library to print with D. Urgh I hope if marks are deducted it will be just a little. Was 30mins late! >.<

2) Tutorial was okay

3) Waited for CHE. For damn freaking long.

4) Got some directions and instructions though she sounds pretty unsure herself. As usual. She don't even read our stuffs I think.

5) Met with J to get her camera charger. She's kind enough to lend me for the weekends. Her camera is already with me anyway since Saturday. And I don't have to fight with my sister for camera usage this weekend. I love you Jiahui! HEHE.

6) Ate McDonalds with LF and W. Sinful. But whatever.

7) Went to get SMT :)

8) Been customising my laptop again! Its getting super addictive. I changed the taskbar icon, Chrome theme. And now my laptop theme is changed into something damn nice and even the start icon is different! Happy. Though the little buttons for play/pause, next and back for WMP is gone. Must be the theme. But I like this theme. *sulks (Okay I sound like a geek >.<)

So yeah that's what happened today! Nothing special. BUTBUTBUT I've got good news too!

1) My Subaru check has arrived! Though I over withdraw so that $XXX will have to stay inside :(

2) V sent me a message! Remember that comment he made on my photo? Well I intended to send him a message but he beat me to it. And despite the spelling/grammar error, I'm happy enough :)

3) Plans for tomorrow have been finalised! Will be meeting D, F and A to go to Ms N's wedding. And then will be with D and the rest of RSS moderners to SHHK concert! (Y) So its like secondary school gathering. HAHA.

4) Oh and my laptop is damn chio now :)

HAHAHA.

Btw, do you know that sleeping can lose some calories?! At least 8h of sleep is sufficient. No wonder my sisters are skinny. They sleep damn long!!! >.< I should sleep more! Which is almost impossible >.<

DEPM 3B/01 (my class) had phototaking ermm that time (can't remember the date LOL). I have no idea what is it for cuz since when ABE have yearbook?! But anyway yeah. It was taken in the rain and I had to miss part of my choreo training. OH I think it was a Wednesday! So these are the pictures. *Its not that well taken -.- And D purposely skipped it so its not a full class.

See what I mean by not well taken? -.-

Informal shots:

And its all taken in the rain la wtf -.- So yeah. And no I don't think I'm the shortest in class (am I? Gosh I hope not) but to be fair some of them are wearing heels okay. I don't like wearing heels so I kind of look like a midget or something. HAHA.

Alrighty that's all for now! I'm looking forward for tomorrow and I'm going to wear my contacts too! Mummy already ironed my baju kurung (for the wedding), I already handwashed a white top that I want to wear, washed my contacts, am charging my phone and the camera now! I shall not risk being late cuz I didn't prepare beforehand. HAHA.

I'm supposed to be studying this weekend but oh well. Happy studying people! And good luck :)

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Better late than never

2010-12-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

OSchool Recital pictures time! Its super belated I know. HAHA. But anyway, there's not much photos la. I brought my camera but I was super lazy to take pictures. HEHE so all this is from my tagged photos @Facebook! From Jia Jia's and Amanda's camera I think!

Can't keep the tickets instead we have this chop thingy!

Jia Jia and Wing! <3

Amanda <3

Angeline Yus YanPing Sabiee and Liern! <3

Wing Jieling *who left early Sab Yus Liern!

With Shina and Denise who performed! Awesome job done!!

And this is after while finding place to eat!

Wing me JiaJia Jasmine Belicia and Liern *face damn cheeky la!

AND SDZ PEOPLE WHO CAME! Like half of them are the performers! HEHE.

And my favourite picture! LALALA.

*Look abit cross eyed eh? LOL

OK END OF PICTURES. HAHAHA. Its damn little I know.

So yeah anyway today was kind of relax. There's Alvena's tutorial. Did quiz in like 10mins? When its supposed to be 50mins. HAHA. And then did tutorial and then ate KFC breakfast and then went home and sleep!! I slept for like 4h? LOL. But afternoon sleep does not make me feel fresher. In contrary it makes me sleepy damn early. Oh and then went to grandma's place for some thanksgiving thingy cuz my uncle got into an accident. Ate damn super alot. ALOT ALOT ALOT OF SYIOK FOOD! >.<

2NE1 recently endorsed Yamaha Fiore scooters:

And they have a song for it: Don't Stop the Music! Here's the video:

And I'm going to say....

ITS AWESOME! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

So yeah. This is only one of the post that I wanted to blog about. I want to sleep early! Sleeping more will result in more calories lost! Its true! HAHA.

Kthxbye!

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Mundane and unmotivated

2010-11-29T21:47:00.001+08:00

I always stare into this space and not knowing what to write and then I'll just exit and go do other stuffs. I don't really like to blog about what I do everyday cuz then it will just be plain boring. Woke up, late for school, lecture, tutorial, dance, come home, do assignments/watch videos.

Yes, I don't have a life.

I don't really know why I don't like to go out at all. Shopping to me is a chore and I get tired of just aimlessly walking to stores and finding stuffs that I will like. Plus, I'm broke nowadays so there's no point in window shopping. Urgh, why am I complaining again?

Anyways, I actually have 3 things I want to blog about.
1) O School Recital 2010 pictures (I wore contacts ok. So I look better than usual. LOL)
2) Gladys and Sabrina belated birthday celebration last Saturday.
3) How I became a fan of 2NE1

HAHA I know like, where the hell did the last one came about?! But because of yesterday's MAMA show, everyone - ok almost everyone that I know is hating them. Ok not hate. But yeah they are not a fan of 2NE1. Other than G. LOL. So yeah I wasn't a fan of them either at first and I even called them ugly. I totally can remember telling Sab that. I'm going to blog about how I became a fan and then you all can like them and join Blackjacks! HEHE. DOROTHY TAN ARE YOU READING THIS?! HMPH.

So that will be another day. Cuz I'm actually feeling damn sleepy already. Did I say I'm now having cough and flu >.< Sucks ttm.

On a brighter note, some happy stuffs happen today:
1) Got A for presentation. Though it is the lowest score (80) but yeah, an A is an A. Somehow it feels damn long ago that I got that grade. Ok, not really. HAHA.
2) Bought waffles and SMT today! (Y)(Y)
3) My dearest V commented on my photo saying I'm cute :) He still loves me after all <3

So yeah. I should get on with report due on Thursday. Or is it Friday? Point is, I have to do work. Full stop.

Kthxbye :)

PS: Switched song back to If I Die Young - The Band Perry :)

Its time for a little break

2010-11-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

3rd vetting is over! It went relatively okay for my items :) Though there's plenty of room for improvement!! Honestly, I was extremely nervous cuz I just learnt Stella's choreo and only did full run for Gladys item once the previous day. Plus it was a super bad day which ended up with me shedding tears. Not cuz I was sad with whatever people say but more disappointed with myself for lacking so so much. But anyway, I just know that I have to work harder cuz having this 2, no make it 4 people to trust me with their item is an honour to me. And yes, I'm proud to be in both choreography :)

It was costume day and modern items have like a dress code. Either short dresses with safety shorts underneath or a top with safety shorts >.< I wore my stockings of course. And this is a rather sensitive issue so if you want to know why ask me personally. Its not something that I'm proud of neither is it something that I want the whole world to know tyvm. And a bit of tact would be appreciated as well.

Before anything, its Gladys Lee Yu Lin and Sabieee's birthday! :) I love you both many many <3

So yeah, G shared with me this video last night (no dancing involved):

Its mad awesome! If you have come to this line without playing that play button GO CLICK IT NOW! The girl's voice is (Y) I haven't got time to check out the rest of her videos but her channel is HERE. I think she's pretty popular in the YouTube world. I immediately downloaded the actual song and erm.. I don't like it very much. This version is way way better x1000.

And I have a new favourite band! He is We :) Yes kind of weird name I know. Read about them here. And this is one of the songs from their album. There are other better songs but I'm lazy to find my favourite.

Their genre is indie + acoustic (Y)

So anyway, I'm sleepy. Class is at 12pm but I have stuffs to do which is unrelated to school so I shall end it here for now. Next week will be 'study week' = no dance week. Hopefully I'll be able to get some rest!

Soliloquy
I don't know what's going on in your head.
I don't know what you're thinking when you do all that.
If I don't mean anything to you, stop giving me mixed signals.
Just leave me alone. Thank you.

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Heavy thoughts bugging me down

2010-11-22T23:45:00.001+08:00

I have a lot of things on my mind. A lot of things I'm worried about, a lot of things to do. I think I haven't been talking much nowadays. My only escape is probably Yus (thanks!) and blogging and writing in my journal on my bed.

I'm worried about dance. It always seems like I'm the weakest link. And I tried. My strength and stamina compared to others is like..... Even though I put in a lot a lot of strength, people tell me, its not enough. And then I can't do for too long cuz I feel tired already. And nowadays so many things hindering me from coming dance regularly. Now I'm glad that I have 2 choreo only. Imagine if I have more than that >.<

I'm worried about school. It always seems like I end up doing almost everything. First of all, I really don't mind doing like most of the work. I don't, really. But some concern is all I need. And plus its not supposed to be just me doing it. It will heartened me a bit if you at least ask how is it going? Is it done yet? Do you need help? Secondly, I have to lug around this thingy like everyday. Almost. I think I brought it everyday last week. Its inconvenient for others, its highly convenient for me? Almost everyday I have to bring backpack and fill it up with this thing, notes, dance stuffs. Yeah, very convenient tyvm. And I cannot dress up cuz bringing backpack will just spoil the whole image. All come, all dressed up, bringing tiny bags with practically nothing in. Tyvm. Sleep, wake up, all done. Never get good grades, not happy. Yeah, try doing it on your own then. Others have 4/5 brains working. My brain is not good at all. Urgh.

But yeah no one cares about this. I cannot have my own social life, I cannot enjoy doing things I enjoy, I cannot just slack and watch shows all day cuz why? I have to worry about assignments and such. As much as I'm able to juggle my stuffs the past 2 years. This time round its becoming more and more taxing. I have no fucking time. I want to sleep by 12 but its impossible.

I don't need much, I just want concern. My education is important. You don't care, you're screwing up my life. My future depends on my education cuz I'm not rich. The only way I can continue studying is through good grades. I'm not trying to be a wet blanket and spoil all the fun. But there's a limit. Maybe I don't know how to have fun but try worrying about so many things and see whether there's any space for fun at all.

Third thing are my flaws. I'm always scared to show people how I really am. I know that people may view me differently after that and I don't want that. Ever since I came to poly, I can count the number of people who knows my secret with my one hand. I just added one today on the list. Please, don't see me differently now :(

And fourth, things going on at home. This cold war is irritating and annoying. Both are at wrong and both doesn't want to give in. And don't vent out you anger on me. I don't know why she's like that to me and to you. Its not my fault. Not my fucking fault dammit.

Okay I've said enough. I don't know what will come out of this. But, no it doesn't make me feel any better. Cuz ranting it out, typing it into a goddamn long post does not change anything at all. The things mentioned above does not vanish just like that.

*Abrupt change of topic.

This looks damn syiok!!!! And fattening and sinful. LOL. From Tumblr!

*Another change of topic. I like this hairstyle!

Anddddd abrupt end of post. I have a test tomorrow >.< And I think I'm skipping my 8am makeup lesson. Siao 10 to 1pm do what you tell me?! And classes ends at 5.30! WTF. The only reason stopping me: I skipped twice already >.< Oh well. I can skip one more right. HEH.

Kthxbye.

Another Sunday evening

2010-11-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

Back here again cuz I'm lazy to start on work. My schedule sucks. Weekdays are all packed and the only free time is Sunday which should be like a free day to rest! So anyway, I don't have much to blog about. I watched 3 eps of The Mentalist season 1 and figured I should start doing my work. But then I got a bit lethargic so here I am.

Rambling again.

So yeah, I came across some videos of Tiffany (SNSD) singing English songs. I'm not a huge fan of SNSD. Though yes, I like their songs (some). My favourite used to be Taeyeon but now she's second after Tiffany :) I actually watched this videos before a long time ago but it still amazes me. Tiffany's voice has that low, husky feel (Y)

And me being bored and very nice, shall share it here. HEH.

This is Tiffany and Taeyeon singing Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.

And another duet by the two of them. This time, A Moment Like This.

A solo performance singing We Belong Together by Mariah Carey.

And another one singing Stickwitu. I used to love this song!!

There you go. Four awesome videos of Tiffany singing :)

I really, really, really envy those who sings on stage. I tried and failed. Cuz I have stage fright. Yes I do. I will shake damn bad and I can't sing with voice shaking. I truly enjoy singing but with voice shaking, no to singing in public :/ Strangely though, it doesn't really come up when I'm dancing. I mean, yes sometimes I do get nervous and shake all that but it won't come up to the point that I'm not able to execute what I have to execute. The biggest mystery of my life. HAHAHAHA.

Alrighty, I should be doing my work. Tempted to watch The Vampire Diaries which I have downloaded but hmm. No one has uploaded OSchool Recital pictures yet. Other than Li Ern. So no pictures today :)

Procrastination is bad. Very bad >.<

When your hip goes to the hop

2010-11-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAHA I know the title doesn't make sense at all :)

Today was awesome, my headache is gone so I shall blog today! HEH.

The start of today was not very good. I had a super bad headache (AGAIN >.<) and I had an errand to run so I didn't go for dance. Even had to miss Stella's choreo which makes me feel damn guilty cuz I didn't come on Thursday as well >.< URGH I'm such a bad dancer.

SO ya, anyway, Sab booked tickets to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1! It was super awesome. Though at the end of the day, Yus kept asking me the details and no matter how much you pay attention during the movie confirm cannot get it. Must read the book! And yours truly here read all seven books more than 3 times. HAHAHAHAHA. Bookworms (Y) After that we went to eat at BK (Sab really hates LJS for some reason >.<) And then off we went to Scape to watch OSCHOOL RECITAL!!

IT WAS MAD DAMN FREAKING DOPE TO THE MAXXXXXXX!! :)))

Of course my favourite are the OCrew items. HEHE. But I like Jessica's item as well! And the Street Jazz (Y) (Y). Ok I like a lot. HAHA. And the whole concept is really really good! Mad creative, confirm Ryan came out with it. LOL. I've been watching like a lot of dance concerts this year. There's 2 more coming up. SHHK and FB! HEHE.

*Will post up the photos when people have uploaded on FB! I only took like what 17 pictures?

So anyway, Yus was telling me that somehow all those that have been my EC are like all getting attached. OH AND I AM MAD DEPRESSED CUZ V JUST CHANGED HIS STATUS ON FB >.< So yeah he's like attached and didn't tell me about it. Okay fine its my fault cuz I didn't reply to his last message. BUT STILL! Tsk. Now I don't have a reason to remain single. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Its damn hard to be a pretty girl you know. Its damn damn hard. First you have to worry about the hair. Windy no good, hair will fly all over the place. Hot no good because will sweat. Rain also no good hairdo completely spoil if never bring umbrella. Then have to worry about the face. No perfect eyesight have to wear contacts. No perfect complexion, have to wear makeup. Then have to worry about the clothes. Plus the shoes and the bag must like coordinate and such. And then accessories. And the list goes on.

Even though I tried, I can never be like pretty, pretty. I'm not so hardworking and patient to worry about all of the above. Normal days, wake up 30mins before going out time, bathe, wear super light makeup, go out. And tie hair at bus stop or bus when its slightly drier. Clothes, just choose whatever is already ironed, if not don't bother ironing and shoes, erm slippers. HAHAHA. I know I should put in more effort with the way I look. But seriously?! Urgh I'm just mad lazy.

My eyebags/dark rings are super horrendous >.< That's one of the reasons why I hate contacts. But hey, I want to try looking pretty for once ok? HAHA.

Cameroid is getting addictive. HEHE.

Showing off the OSchool chop(?) HAHA.

I like this effect!

And below are without effects! Can totally see my dark rings >.<

And my eyes look bigger!! (Y)

Fat fingers :(

And ending with this cuz my hair looks nice! HAHAHHAHAHA.

My sisters always give me weird looks when I'm using cameroid cuz my I'm using my laptop in the living room and everyone can see! HAHA.

Tomorrow (its 2.08am but I changed the time) will be do-work-day. Super a lot of things to be done yo. GO GO GO :)

Kthxbye!

Bloated I tell you

2010-11-17T22:22:00.001+08:00

Should be doing my work but as usual I'm digressing. Ate a lot today cuz its Hari Raya Haji and I went to my grandma's house. The food is damn syiok I don't know how many times I ate >.< HAHA. I should stop eating so much man. Oh yeah I discovered one thing. I tend to eat very little at home. Like especially during the weekends, I will wake up at like 1pm, then use laptop/do work blablabla and maybe drink milo or bbt then have dinner at like 8pm. And then I won't eat after that. I know SMT is not good and its fattening but whatever. I like okay :)

I have these to be done by 1am. That's the time I aim to sleep! School is at 8am tomorrow and its like doing 2 reports back to back in class so yeah, I need my brain to work. Oh and then dance after that. I'll probably go home first :/ Oh yeah, my list of things to be done:
1) Tidy up Friday's presentation (URGH first time saying this, I HATE YOU YOG. Cuz my presentation is on that. But yeah I still enjoyed the performance time. HAHAHAH)
2) BMW report draft out!
3) Career Fair report draft out!

So I should start now? URGHHHH.

Digressing again on a brighter note, this Saturday will be fun, fun, fun. Will be watching Harry Potter + dinner + OSchool Recital! And all with half of my senjas :) Check out the trailer below:

Gonna be awesome I tell you.

WJL will probably sleep again and wake up to ask, "Who is Voldemort?" or "Which one is Harry Potter?" She totally never follow Harry Potter (movies + books) and was totally blur when we went to watch the previous one. But because she loves and misses us she's just tagging along. HEHE.

Oh yeah was playing around with Cameroid again yesterday. I swear my hair only looks good at home >.<

(I super love this one cuz my hair looks nice and I look so erm demure. HAHAHHA)

My hairstyle never change much my whole life cuz I hate trying new stuffs. And I think this length hair suits me best? HAHAHA.

Downloading a whole bunch of malay albums. HAHA from the band Ungu (Y).

Okay I should get on with my work.